I keep on having false memories and intrusive thoughts.. I keep on seeking reassurance but i try not to even though its hard..I feel like im a bad person.. also I keep on asking questions for every small detail on daily things.. Its so annoying and exhausting to do this...
Yep. You finally move on from one thought to just face another and at some point the original one will come back and you start ruminating on that all over again! So annoying.
This is exactly me. It’s exhausting!
It truly is... I wake up every day with anxiety with new stories popping up in my mind..The others hide for a while and then they pop up again..
Me too I’m stuck on one thought for the last four weeks 😔
Me too.. I totally understand.. Don't worry.. Everything will be ok.. Its just our Ocd playing games with us.. We can be strong and when the thought comes we do nothing so we don't give it power.. So it becomes just a thought like the others.. Reading and watching videos about Ocd helps a lot.. Do you watch videos about it?
Yes I watch and read a lot so I totally get what’s going on and how ocd works but it’s so difficult not to take it seriously when it FEELS so real. I also wish it would switch theme. All my thoughts are around my wonderful husband and I wish I could go back to worrying if I’ve locked the door or something like that!
I read so many ways to stop ruminating. Some people say to see them like a wave slowly going away.. Some people say not to do anything.. There are so many more ways. The good part of internet is we can research many ways 😀
I've been dealing with this for so long and each time I move on from a different false memory it feels like "this is it, THIS is the actual real one" it just feels so logical, something I WOULD do (or maybe my OCD is saying I would do it but in reality maybe no) but Idk its like I can't say its false because its like I'm lying and downplaying it :( I don't know whats real or not. Many say, if its hazey its false but I get real memories that are hazey as well. They both feel the same. It just FEELS like I did it yu know ? Just like how you feel like you did something and try to figure out if you did it or not with an actual memory, with this false memory it feels the exact same. I got a immediate spike on this one when ruminating and I don't remember if that false memory was real or not, hell I don't even know what the false memory was, but because I got an anxiety spike with my actual real event, it also feels the same and maybe I got it because it was real :( Its tough...
I totally understand what you are going through.. I get many false memories.. They keep on popping up and adding more scenarios.. I feel so depressed lately cause of these thoughts.. They feel so real even though i know they are false.. Its making me feel like i have lost my mind..
@nastazia its really hard but ik we gotta keep moving forward. trying to tell myself that if it was true, it would have already been part of my real events when it all started since ik what are real but god dang the feeling of me doing it is just... its just something I "DID" 🫂💕💕💕 sending love
@InkJoy123 My false memories seem so real and not hazey.. They seem real but i know they are false.. I know we have to be strong and know its just our Ocd playing with our mind..
Do you all feel like if you try to ignore the thoughts that you’re being delusional and blocking it out or suppressing it somehow. It just feels counterintuitive to ignore these intrusive thoughts.
@Angel20 im very afraid for something to actually pop up so its like im suppressing whatever it is my mind wanta to produce may it be false or real even though i know i shouldnt :(
That is exactly what Im going through too.. Sometimes i think im crazy or losing my mind.. Being uncertain is even worse.. Not knowing.. And the stories keep adding new scenarios.. What if this what if that.. always a what if.. I feel trapped in this cycle...
@Sparkle2022 Yup its like you disapprove your false memory but then its like "well what about this ? this would have been easier to do / more of a possibility for this to happen rather than your old false memory you just disapproved, maybe you are remembering wrong again..." its honestly so hard to get through
I know it feels so real.. I wish the same thing too.. I ruminate all day and night.. When I do chores or exercise it takes my mind off things a bit... I still ruminate but not so much... I wish there was a magic button and stopped the thoughts...
I have a bunch of real event/false memory and there is one that I remember I got in the middle of a horrible episode and I believed it was false but now I can’t remember why I thought it was false and now believe it could be real and it’s just bothering me so much because I want to remember the details to why I believed it was false in the first place and I’m just in a horrible spot and feel disgusting and am getting intrusive thoughts on my themes when I try to check if they are intrusive or not and I can’t function like i don’t wanna be around anyone because all I want to do is confess but I can’t because then I’ll obsess on confessing and they won’t understand.
So hard to not engage the thoughts because even though it's from the "past" (i don't even know if im remembering things correctly and it kills me) and i can't change it, I just NEED to prove it to myself that it didn't happen this way. If you'd asked me questions maybe a few months ago, I would have been able to lucidly explain things. Now I just feel like I'm in a constant swarm of thoughts, not knowing if anything is real. If my brain is to be trusted. Wish I could just get hypnosis to forget
I hate this! so f-ing annoying! my brain gets over one “what if”, then goes onto the next immediately. It’s like my punishment for feeling and sort of peace or relief. for example, I did a compulsion yesterday trying to see if I did anything bad/inappropriate, I eventually got relief and was like I didn’t do anything bad but then today I did the compulsion one more time just to make sure and then I finally got relief and then my ocd latched onto the compulsion I did today and was like “what if u did something bad/inappropriate but don’t remember” like wtf. this JUST happened. it feels like i forget things immediately!!! Idek if this makes sense im just venting this is so annoying
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