- Date posted
- 2y
Nightmares
False memories are kicking my butt :( It’s getting so bad again. The memory keeps getting realer and realer the more I think of it. Or I don’t even try to think it just pops up like a flashback.
False memories are kicking my butt :( It’s getting so bad again. The memory keeps getting realer and realer the more I think of it. Or I don’t even try to think it just pops up like a flashback.
This sounds really upsetting to deal with.OCD can be very convincing. I generally just stop trying to figure out which memories are false for the time being when this happens to me. I just try and engage with the physical world, and go on a walk, sing, touch blankets and walls, try and get out of my head. Take it day by day, you got this!
@Devu Yes it’s weird because it started off as an intrusive thought and I think that’s why I know it’s a false memory… I think I was having intrusive thoughts at the time. But it doesn’t matter because my brain still made a whole story up.
I am so sorry that you are experiencing this. Please know that this is actually common when you have OCD. But the more you try and replay/review or figure out a memory, the less reliable it becomes, and the more doubt you have- as you have seen from your post. The way to help it is to not engage the memory/thought- to sit in the uncertainty of it- as hard as that is. Have you done any ERP?
@NOCD Therapist - Stacy Q. No I haven’t, I think it’s time I do. How does erp work?
So hard to not engage the thoughts because even though it's from the "past" (i don't even know if im remembering things correctly and it kills me) and i can't change it, I just NEED to prove it to myself that it didn't happen this way. If you'd asked me questions maybe a few months ago, I would have been able to lucidly explain things. Now I just feel like I'm in a constant swarm of thoughts, not knowing if anything is real. If my brain is to be trusted. Wish I could just get hypnosis to forget
Does anyone else’s false memory intrusive thoughts of what could have happened feel very, very real?
This situation just happened and I can definitely remember how it went but my brain is telling me otherwise and I know you guys said to sit with the uncertainty but what if the intrusive thought is so bad like disgusting, I can’t sit with that. Maybe it’s false memory but this just happened. I don’t even know how to live with this
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