Do I have a hocd cycle ?

I can’t get diagnosed because I’m 16. I feel left in the dark. Not asking anyone to diagnose me. Just If they see a hocd cycle that could indicate I possibly suffer from it. Please When I was 14 nearly 15 I had a random thought ‘am I gay’ and I immediately had discomfort. The next day I asked myself again and this time (I believe I had real event ocd) the event came through as almost ‘proof’ and that’s the beginning. I started taking quizzes to see whether I was gay. I asked friends and family to tell me if they thought I was gay. The idea of being gay worried me and I searched up how I felt and that’s how I found Hocd. I related to some of the symptoms but I didn’t have many compulsions. At the age of 15 it was really bad and I still hated the idea of being gay. A few months later I tried a relationship with someone of the opposite gender and I fell in love. My thoughts of being gay were pretty much gone. I was obsessed with this boy. However I became obsessed with needing reassurance that this boy loved me. Every. Single. Day. When I was 16 It became too much for him and we split up. 4 months after obsessing over the breakup and questioning if I was abusive, if I ever SA him, if I was toxic or a bad girlfriend…I had the ‘am I gay’ thought and that’s how it came Back. The thoughts are constant. I get these: ‘Am I gay’ ‘do you like her’ ‘remember when … that must mean your gay’ *gets groinals* (even after seeing just a girl in a skirt) *head tries to convince me I like my friends* *lost all attraction to the opposite gender. I don’t feel anything whatsoever* ‘is this really hocd because you’re not diagnosed. You just found it’ ‘You don’t do physical compulsions like others. So it’s all real’ I don’t have many compulsions but here’s what I do: * when I have a thought I ask other hocd suffers if they have the same and if they tell me yes I feel happy and completely normal for at least an hour. Then it’s back * If I get a thought sometimes I’ll try and distract myself or possibly even pinch myself to make sure I’m focused on the pinch not the thought. * If I get a groinal I’ll sometimes check to see if it’s a real response * Checking porn to see if I react to lesbian stuff (I have done and I had a meltdown) All of this happens every day. And everyday I manage to find something that gives me that temporary relief. But then it comes back after.