Hailee Proctor
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Does anyone else's Harm OCD make you question if you are a psychopath or a sociopath?? I keep thinking it and I'm worrying a lot. This is all so tiring. I just wish it would leave me alone..😔
artsygirlartsygirl
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Yep. I try to say “ok I accept that I’m having this thought and I acknowledge it and it can stay as long as it wants.”
Hailee Proctor Hailee Proctor
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I would love to accept the thought. And I'm trying. I'm just scared that if I do it may come true. This sucks. I wouldn't wish this upon anyone. Some days are amazing and others are absolutely horrible
artsygirlartsygirl
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@Hailee Proctor I totally get it and it’s so hard and it’s ok to say “this is really hard but I’m going to accept the uncertainty in this thought. Maybe I am. Maybe I’m not.”
Hailee Proctor Hailee Proctor
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@artsygirl I thank you so much for the advice. This is such a hard thing to cope with.
artsygirlartsygirl
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@Hailee Proctor I was in a really bad place a few weeks back. I’ve since been reading Kimberly quinlins book self compassion for ocd workbook and also Overcoming intrusive thoughts by someone else. They’re both fantastic.
artsygirlartsygirl
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@artsygirl You got this. We can do hard things !
imnotdoneyetimnotdoneyet
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The sad part is that I got over it by obsessing about another theme 🙂 but I’ve learned to let it go more through community and talking about it. Stigma and shame make it worse
Hocd31Hocd31
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@imnotdoneyet I’ve thought about this, is the theme any “better” ?
imnotdoneyetimnotdoneyet
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@Hocd31 Mmm I wouldn’t say it’s better it’s it’s own hell. I’m more fixated on health OCD right now
artsygirlartsygirl
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@Hocd31 They all suck.
Hocd31Hocd31
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@imnotdoneyet Im not too educated on that, but i hope things get better for you, if you need anything reach out
Jesse M.Jesse M.
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Yes! Sometimes I hear things and I'm not sure I heard them and I worry about having a psychotic break and becoming violent. It's a very un-fun blend of my harm ocd and health ocd themes. My ERP therapist helped me to create exposures for the health theme (psychosis) and the harm/suicidal theme (violence toward others and myself). Over time, as we've worked on both themes, it's gotten better. Sometimes I hear a fly buzz nearby and it still triggers me and I have to say that I may or may not have heard that buzzing. You got this!
Hailee Proctor Hailee Proctor
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Thank you so much. All of this is the worst. I just want to go back to how I was before
AnonymousAnonymous
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@Jesse M. Jesse, I am struggling with the exact same thing. This “hyper awareness” ocd. Message me if you ever want to talk!
Hocd31Hocd31
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It makes you feel like you’re convincing yourself you are. I’ve been struggling with it and its made me sick. Hope you’re doing ok
Hailee Proctor Hailee Proctor
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Yes it does!!! It's so tiring. I wish that this would go away!! I hope you get through this and I wish the best for you
Hocd31Hocd31
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@Hailee Proctor Thank you hailee, if u wanna talk just let me know
Hailee Proctor Hailee Proctor
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@Hocd31 Thank you so much
imnotdoneyetimnotdoneyet
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This was an OCD theme for me for years! You’re not alone.
Hocd31Hocd31
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@imnotdoneyet How did you get past it??
artsygirlartsygirl
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@Hocd31 I tried for so long to just ignore it - I even did ERP as hard as I could but I realized I was doing it to get rid of the anxiety which is actually a compulsion. It wasn’t until I told myself “okay im having harm thoughts. This makes me anxious and I acknowledge that and I will sit with this anxiety.” My therapist had me think of doing ERP to “build muscles” and to acclimate to the anxiety instead of getting rid of it. That along with self compassion has begun to change my life.
Hocd31Hocd31
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@artsygirl I absolutely love hearing that you give me hope and it means so much. So exposure is a bad thing i guess? Or at least in your case
artsygirlartsygirl
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@Hocd31 No, exposure is not a bad thing but I needed to think about it differently in my case so it wasn’t a compulsion. ERP when done correctly is the gold standard
Hocd31Hocd31
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@artsygirl Thank you, means a lot especially because we’re strangers, hope you have a good day
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