I'm really tired. I want to cry it out and then just disappear from the earth. I try not to talk about my intrusive thoughts with others because they'll not understand or they're persuade my theme in a way that will trigger me so im stack here all alone in an endless loop. Its sad. I'm questioning old friendships, I'm questioning myself.. everything. I don't know anymore.
Consider seeking help for depression. Not necessarily drugs. Rather coping skills.
Just to clarify i don't want to hurt myself! I'm just really tired. Thank you for the respond thought. 🌻❤️
@Anonymous 🌻 I know. You don’t sound like you’re going to hurt yourself. But you do sound depressed. And depression is a huge obstacle in succeeding in anything really. Once you take care of it you’ll have more energy to deal with your OCD
@nocd_username Thank you for your support, i really appreciate it. I hope you are doing well! 💖🌻
I’m really down and don’t have anyone i feel i can turn to. I’m just so tired of living as myself. I hate who i love with including myself. I feel so worthless. Having ocd on top of it makes me feel like im just a waste of space. I dont know how to stop feeling this way. Or if i deserve to. That’s all :(
I can't live with OCD anymore. It's ruining my life. I feel like I'm being constantly bullied in my own mind all day everyday. I don't know if what I think and feel is ever real or normal or okay, what is me and what is the OCD thoughts. I don't know if any of my experiences are normal. I'm exhausted from picking apart every single conversation I ever have with anyone until I'm strung out by a vague and ambiguous feeling of guilt. I'm tired of feeling like I'm a bad person and feeling scared all the time and not knowing why and having my brain spin me out on an endless spiralling train of thoughts that never goes anywhere and just makes me feel disconnected from everything and everyone around me. I don't know what I feel and if what I feel is normal or if anything I am doing is real and actually me or if I'm 'losing my mind.' I don't even know if this makes any sense. I get into these states of mind where every thought in my head and everything I feel and perceive makes me question my own sanity. I don't know if anyone likes me because I have absolutely no concept of what I am actually like. I feel completely lost and confused CONSTANTLY.
I can’t stop crying. My thoughts are going insane, they’re so fast I can’t keep up. I want to tell everyone around me what’s happening (my family doesn’t even know about my OCD). I can’t seem to resist compulsions today. I’m freaking out. I want to give up. I feel like I’m suffocating in whatever is going on. I feel like I need to go to a hospital. I don’t know how to ask for help. I don’t feel okay. I don’t understand this at all. It feels like I took some random drug. I’m really scared I’m sorry, I am so panicked. It’s embarrassing but I feel so desperate for help right now I feel crazy
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