- Username
- Shannon
- Date posted
- 120d ago
- Relationship OCD
- Sexual Orientation OCD
ROCD
I have been doing really well but now it’s hit me again but it feels as if I don’t care. I switch between ROCD and SOOCD. Tonight I had a goodnight with my partner and friends but got a thought of ‘I don’t want this’- I usually find it hard being around people Drinking as I’m sober so it’s not unusual for me to be slightly less tolerant. I confessed to my boyfriend and he said ‘if you are spending an evening thinking you shouldn’t be with me then you shouldn’t be’. This isn’t great to hear but I also feel like I don’t care. I don’t want to feel this or have these thoughts but they do happen often. Not sure if my ‘lack of feeling’ is because there isn’t any OR if because I’m so used to OCD it’s hard to feel that extreme anxiety anymore. I so want to make my relationship work but this is pretty much never ending. What’s the solution? Doubting this is OCD anymore.