- Date posted
- 2y ago
Nervous about tomorrow
I'm afraid I'll have more stronger flashbacks since I'm going shopping again tomorrow
I'm afraid I'll have more stronger flashbacks since I'm going shopping again tomorrow
Like I'm not even scared I feel numb and ever since that night I've completely went down hill Idk what to do the feeling i felt this time genuily felt like i liked it and i didnt even have anxiety at that moment and now I'm panicking I really hope this is still OCD like I'm sorry if I'm still asking for reassurance but im really worried like it felt good in that moment I don't understand what's going on like I hope it was a false feeling and not something real.....like this has happened before but Idk ππππ I really don't know what to I don't want to turn into a p word I don't this I've been sleeping all day I still do compulsions a little to get rid of the thoughts but I've been getting sexual thoughts too and I don't want them but I feel like I do I don't understand I though I was getting better but I guess every time I get better everything gets worse..
When I talk about how terrible I used to be to my girlfriend it makes me feel like Iβm gonna do it again which I donβt wanna do and it scares me and then I get intrusive thoughts and feelings about it doing it but I donβt want to, weird I know.
I am extremely nervous for my first session with a NOCD therapist. I feel myself tapping and counting more, what if he doesnβt like me? What if Iβm not open enough? What if I talk too much? What if I tell things I donβt want to tell. Is this the right platform for OCD/ROCD ? Canβt sleep.
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