- Username
- wheeleri
- Date posted
- 494d ago
- Existential OCD
- Religion & Spirituality OCD
Rumination
Avoiding the compulsion to ruminate, is it supposed to be draining? I know it’s important to sit in uncertainty, but the pain can be overwhelming sometimes. There are some beliefs that I want to embrace, but I face a lot of opposition in my community. And when it comes to opinions and beliefs, different sides can present logical arguments all day long and still accomplish nothing. So, I try to tell myself “maybe these beliefs I want to have are true, or maybe they’re not”. But sitting in that space is so painful. These beliefs affect what I decide to do with my life so not acting on them but also not denying them leaves me in this horrible limbo. Oftentimes when I do ruminate about it and I come to the conclusion “yes, this is what I believe, and I feel happy about it” I fare a lot better for a while. Until inevitably I question it all again. So I’ve tried to not reach any sort of conclusion at all, and I just feel empty. And I lose the will or energy to do much of anything. How am I supposed to go on like this?