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- Date posted
- 492d ago
- "Pure" OCD
- Transgender OCD
gender and ocd
i’m so confused about my gender and my ocd is NOT helping. It keeps forcing me to “pick a side” and label myself or my identity and then almost immediately when i do my mind is flooded with thoughts of doubt. i’m afab (assigned female at birth) but i’ve always been a huge tomboy and i cut my hair short and i feel so much more comfortable dressing and expressing myself more masculine and i even like when i get mistaken as a guy. but sometimes i just wanna dress, look, and feel like a sexy feminine girl and that just confuses me. it’s like i wish i could be masculine by default but snap my fingers and be able to be a pretty feminine girl that gets complimented. but i get tired of it quickly, makeup and feminine clothes and my feminine persona/confidence can feel like a costume that i wish i could snap my fingers and be right back to being masculine. like i wish i could be two people even though id mainly chose to be the masculine version as that feels more authentic and comfortable.