Multiple themes?

Does anyone’s themes bounce around? Yesterday I was suffering heavy from contamination intrusive thoughts, today I am having thoughts that “what if I hit someone on my way home and didn’t realize” when reality is nobody was around on the road and I know I’d know if I hit someone. I have had high stress in life recently which I think is triggering this flare up. I just wanna be okay and I know I need to see a therapist but financially as a student that Isn’t in the cards right now. Anybody have advice for how to handle your mind consult dining new things to fixate on? In the last two years relationship and SO themes have been the ones I’ve struggled with, but these constant intrusive thoughts are all over the place and it’s less easy to cope now. Any advice appreciated! Thank You!

Spring05

Date posted: 2y ago

This is OCDs favorite game to switch up the themes. Its just another hat trick. As for resources, there are great weekly Wednesday webinars with the director of NOCD where people ask questions. Also there are free support groups on this app. Also the app has a lot of great features whenever you are ready to do exposure therapy. Also there's a recording in the "SOS" button that's really great for getting outside my head.

Themechanger

Date posted: 2y ago

@Spring05 Thank You so much! It feels so real in my head and it’s crippling to me because although I know it’s not true my brain is riding on any possible lack of proof that these things are… I appreciate your words :)

Spring05

Date posted: 2y ago

In short, yes this happens to me from to time that the themes switch.

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

Yes, my themes bounce around as well I would say. Some days I can be fixated on my sexual orientation OCD, and the next day, I’m fixated on something completely different. I understand what you mean when you say you get a flare up. Whenever I have a very bad anxious flare up I start to think a lot about my life existence OCD, because in my head I think, “what is the point of all of this”. And I struggle a lot with these thoughts because I can never find myself an answer and its so frustrating. I feel you about just wanting to be okay. When I’m having these thoughts I personally don’t know how to get out of it in that moment, but once the thought seems to have vanished just a little bit, I journal about it. I try not to distract myself from these thoughts because then they’re most likely gonna come back. So, instead I journal about my feelings about these thoughts, where these thoughts come from, and just be true to myself in my journal and not hold back any of my emotions as I’m writing. This has seemed to help me not beat myself up about it and realize, even though I have these thoughts I’m processing them and doing what I can to work through them privately in my journal. I don’t know if its just me, but I find so much comfort and privacy when it comes to my journal. So, allowing myself that time to write, makes me feel like I am getting something positive out of it even if it doesn’t seem that way in the moment. I hope this helps:)

Themechanger

Date posted: 2y ago

@Anonymous Thank You for this! I have thought about journaling recently and think I am going to start doing it, I did it years ago and haven’t recently but think it’s time to start again! Thank you for your help!

BeeCee87

Date posted: 21w ago

Intrusive thoughts Help.

I’m having a very bad evening with my intrusive thoughts. I was doing really good dealing with them but tonight one hit me hard. I’ve been having a lot of different intrusive thoughts but I’ll have one occasionally about hurting my mom or my dog who I love and they’re the only family I have in my life. They’re my world. I was helping my mom put away the dishes and I had the big kitchen knife in my hand and my intrusive thought was you could stab your mom. And then my brain said I had a twitch in my hand and that meant I wanted to do it. Let me just say that I wouldn’t hurt a fly. I actually caught a fly in a glass and put it outside instead of killing it this evening before this intrusive thought happened. I’m such a gentle and compassionate and caring person and these thoughts instantly cause me to have a panic attack. And I have no one to talk to them about. I know they’re hard for my mom to hear and I don’t want to be any more of a burden than I already am. I do desperately want to tell her and have her reassure me that I’m not crazy or a psycho. Then my thoughts wander to if your hand did flinch could you be a psychopath. Is hurting someone in you. I know it’s not but I feel like my mind is out to get me and hurt me. I’m working so hard and I thought I was doing so good but I need to know why I have these thoughts. They’re not ok. I need someone to help me make sense of why. I know we aren’t supposed to ruminate but I shouldn’t have thoughts like this about people I love and care about the most in the world.

nae nae

Date posted: 20w ago

I'm sorry. Just need to vent. :(

This might contain triggering content, but I'm also wondering if others have dealt with this similar thought, and if so, how to deal with it? Overall, I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm able to eat again, which I hadn't been able to do because of how much anxiety I'd been experiencing. I'm spending time around loved ones and not just rotting in my room, and I've been able to wake up without immediately being bombarded by intrusive thoughts. When things first got really bad, I'd wake my mom up every night for reassurance, but I haven't done that in a while either. I'm really proud of myself, but there's still this nagging thought in my mind... While looking through others posts on here, hoping to find advice that'd fit my situation, I ended up making things worse. Someone mentioned how they had a fear that they'd purposely search for illegal content (related to POCD). I panicked, and "what ifs" flooded my thoughts. "What if the intrusive thoughts affect who I am as a person, and I do that?" I'm terrified that I'll search for those things, which I know means I wouldn't do it. But then, another person on here said they'd actually looked for those things, and that freaked me out even more. Does that mean it's possible for that to happen to me? I don't want to do that, but I keep having intrusive thoughts surrounding it. I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm just... stuck. I don't know what to do. I've spoken with other people who have the same fears, but how do I manage this? It's not something I've even thought about before seeing those posts. I've been practicing accepting the uncertainty, but I'm really struggling with this one. I hate this. This morning, I woke up, and the intrusive thoughts were back. It's just disheartening.

Chels0212

Date posted: 16w ago

Intrusive thoughts

I struggle so bad with intrusive thoughts. They can be so bad that I'll cry because I KNOW that's not how I feel or want to do. (Too embarrassed to say what they're about) I'll constantly try to figure out why I have them, and constantly figure out what they mean, causing me to constantly circle around and around. I had to get on anxeity meds, which helped a little but the thoughts still happen. How do you help yourself with this? How do you know that you're just not some physcopath? 😅

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