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How is everybody today? Does anybody need to talk about anything? ♥️♥️♥️
How is everybody today? Does anybody need to talk about anything? ♥️♥️♥️
I had a big cry today! I'm expecting a baby and there's a lot of emotions going around :)
Aww congratulations on the baby! Sometimes it's good to have a big cry to let all of your feelings out. Good luck ♥️
@Marc D Congratulations! Much love and happiness to you and your new family to come.❤️
Sometimes it feels like I take one step forward and then two steps back. It gets really frustrating. These past 4 days have been a bit harder. But I still go about my day like nothing is bothering me even though I’m thinking a million thoughts at once. And sometimes it only takes one of those thoughts to hold me back again. I’m gonna still keep fighting but it’s one of the hardest things I’ve ever dealt with in my life.
You're so strong! Recovery wont be easy (even though we all wish it was) and there will be a lot of downs, but also lots of ups! I hope you feel better soon♥️
I feel like I’m walking on egg shells! Everything “seems” fine and like OCD is maybe on the way out, but I can’t help but feel like it’s on the back of my mind instead of on the top of it. And for some reason that uncertainty feels weird. Like I’m not sure if I gave in or not.
I'm feeling the same way at the moment. You're very strong ♥️
I’ve been somewhat ok. I’m not working right now, so don’t have to deal with severe levels of OCD. But I still have my times when out and about. Had ERP this morning. My insurance is over 11/30. So maybe MediCal will take me, but NOCD not covered. So at least I can use this app. and my therapist will hold a spot for me for 3 mos. in case I get another provider through Covered Cal. I’m in parking lot debating whether to get a coffee, which hypes me up and mimics my fight or flight. But they’re so darn good. 🌟
@Anonymous I’m so glad you’ll still have this app! We can at least try to be supportive. Fingers crossed🤞🏼you can find some insurance and a provider so you can continue, I think just learning ERP is already so so helpful.
Landlord doubled my rent :/, like 99% certain he's trying to force me out. It's really unfortunate because I was just starting to get to some relative stability with my OCD.
I'm sorry ♥️
@Idyot Eek…I know this feeling of being hit with something that feels destabilizing. I agree with person above, double check if they are able to do that. Best of luck to you!
I’m having a very hopeful couple of days…after a long stretch of very doom filled ones. You’re very kind for offering others to engage and vent. 💜
I'm very happy for you. And thank you! ♥️
I’m really really struggling. I had a flashback to my childhood and I’m panicking because I can’t remember if I did or didn’t like the same gender. Part of me wants to say yes. Part wants to say no. I remember having crushes on boys but I’m scared I had them for girls and I can’t remember. This feels so so real. Like 99% real. I’m breaking down honestly
I'm sorry you're going through this ♥️
@Myheadhurts35 Sending you loads of well wishes. I think the answer is to try not to seek an answer, or maybe take a break from it to start.
PLEASE do not argue over political stances in this post that is not what this is for at all. For context I consider myself someone with mixed views (politically homeless) and I am connected with people of all stripes and beliefs and stances. After the inauguration in the USA this weekend there has been an overwhelming response from the populace especially online. I feel like I’m completely surrounded by people (on every “side”) who are making very intense and unyielding statements about other people’s morals and values and “good-“ or “bad-ness” based on their beliefs, opinions, responses or non responses to all the different things going on politically. I feel like it’s driving me insane. My head has been spinning constantly and I can’t stop crying. I feel like I’m drowning and cornered and under a police interrogation light. I’m so terrified of saying or doing or thinking or not thinking the “wrong” thing, I’m feeling my heart being torn in so many directions and I’m struggling to stop ruminating and spiraling over feeling like I don’t belong anywhere and no matter what I’m always going to be evil to someone. This is not me taking a side or revealing what I think, or trying to make an implied judgment or comment on ANY political figure, policy, etc….My point is: the issue I’m having is with the way people are talking about these issues and about other people in the midst of these issues, so black and white, so moralistic, and my OCD is having a field day. Just looking for camaraderie and to know I’m not alone in this. I please ask again do not bring up specific political issues or take stances in the comments. Thank you.
So I’m not sure how many/if any of you are Christians, but I’m assuming this can still make sense to some of you. This morning has been rough. I’m constantly thinking, “am I saved? Have I never been saved and I’m tricking myself into thinking I am? When I’m listening to Christian music am I doing for the right reasons? Is it too late for me?”. Things I know the truthful answers to but yet I still think these thoughts. I don’t understand why. Why do I constantly think about these “what if”’s? My heart always feels so heavy and I feel as if I need to talk to God right then and there to make it stop and go away. But then am I talking to the Lord for the wrong reasons? And the cycle repeats. Thankfully, day one of my therapy is tonight and I’m hoping to find at least a little clarity on this stuff. I’ve had OCD for 7 years and I don’t even know how it works. Any advice?
I've had this app for awhile and was really nervous to post,comment or like anything.I still am,and frankly I've been having a really rough time which mostly includes ocd symptom,guilt/shame and agoraphobia which is not a fun combo but a small part of me is so tired of hiding and feeling awful all the time,even if at times I feel like I deserve it.I've been wanting to dabble into my hobbies like drawing or gaming but even my hobbies have been stressful & these negative feelings have been so awful for so long that I feel like I'm standing between two roads all the time yet feel horrified and worried either path when it comes to almost any decision will be wrong or not worth it in the end(and I hate that I feel like so.).I'm sure people can relate but the heavy loneliness and dehumanizing feelings is so awful,it's so good at it too.😭 I'm not diagnosed yet but I share alot of symptoms (interested to figure that out about myself soon.),but until I get medical insurance figured out I don't think I'll have access to professional help yet so for now I've just been watching some professionals online and I might finally read 'Freedom From Obsessive Personality Disorder' and see what it can offer.ANYWAYS,I'm trying to force myself to post so I can to people irl and online in any way I can train my brain to not stay so terrified of everything/everyone so,how has your day been?I hope it's been going well,if you've read this book or have any good suggests please feel free to let me know!
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