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How is everybody today? Does anybody need to talk about anything? ♥️♥️♥️
How is everybody today? Does anybody need to talk about anything? ♥️♥️♥️
I had a big cry today! I'm expecting a baby and there's a lot of emotions going around :)
Aww congratulations on the baby! Sometimes it's good to have a big cry to let all of your feelings out. Good luck ♥️
@Marc D Congratulations! Much love and happiness to you and your new family to come.❤️
Sometimes it feels like I take one step forward and then two steps back. It gets really frustrating. These past 4 days have been a bit harder. But I still go about my day like nothing is bothering me even though I’m thinking a million thoughts at once. And sometimes it only takes one of those thoughts to hold me back again. I’m gonna still keep fighting but it’s one of the hardest things I’ve ever dealt with in my life.
You're so strong! Recovery wont be easy (even though we all wish it was) and there will be a lot of downs, but also lots of ups! I hope you feel better soon♥️
I feel like I’m walking on egg shells! Everything “seems” fine and like OCD is maybe on the way out, but I can’t help but feel like it’s on the back of my mind instead of on the top of it. And for some reason that uncertainty feels weird. Like I’m not sure if I gave in or not.
I'm feeling the same way at the moment. You're very strong ♥️
I’ve been somewhat ok. I’m not working right now, so don’t have to deal with severe levels of OCD. But I still have my times when out and about. Had ERP this morning. My insurance is over 11/30. So maybe MediCal will take me, but NOCD not covered. So at least I can use this app. and my therapist will hold a spot for me for 3 mos. in case I get another provider through Covered Cal. I’m in parking lot debating whether to get a coffee, which hypes me up and mimics my fight or flight. But they’re so darn good. 🌟
@Anonymous I’m so glad you’ll still have this app! We can at least try to be supportive. Fingers crossed🤞🏼you can find some insurance and a provider so you can continue, I think just learning ERP is already so so helpful.
Landlord doubled my rent :/, like 99% certain he's trying to force me out. It's really unfortunate because I was just starting to get to some relative stability with my OCD.
I'm sorry ♥️
@Idyot Eek…I know this feeling of being hit with something that feels destabilizing. I agree with person above, double check if they are able to do that. Best of luck to you!
I’m having a very hopeful couple of days…after a long stretch of very doom filled ones. You’re very kind for offering others to engage and vent. 💜
I'm very happy for you. And thank you! ♥️
I’m really really struggling. I had a flashback to my childhood and I’m panicking because I can’t remember if I did or didn’t like the same gender. Part of me wants to say yes. Part wants to say no. I remember having crushes on boys but I’m scared I had them for girls and I can’t remember. This feels so so real. Like 99% real. I’m breaking down honestly
I'm sorry you're going through this ♥️
@Myheadhurts35 Sending you loads of well wishes. I think the answer is to try not to seek an answer, or maybe take a break from it to start.
I don’t have much of a support system outside of my bf, so I find myself here a lot. I think I just need to vent, so forgive me if I do this too often. It helps to have a community of people who truly understand. I haven’t felt this debilitated by mental illness in months. There has to be some explanation, maybe it’s hormonal, because I feel like I’ve completely lost myself. The panic hits in waves, sudden and overwhelming, like my head is submerged in lava, burning and suffocating. Then, for a brief moment, I feel almost normal and wonder what all the fear was about. But it never lasts. The chaos always comes back. I even considered going to the ER because I’m not sure I can trust myself anymore. Something has to be wrong, because this isn’t me. My life isn’t perfect, but it’s not unbearable either. Since I withdrew from school, I’ve been so much less stressed that even my cycle, which has been irregular for years, has somehow regulated itself. But even with that, I feel like a failure. I was one semester away from finishing, so close, but OCD hit me harder than it ever has. It felt like drowning, gasping for air, reaching for something solid, only to be dragged under again and again. Now, I feel like that again, but worse. I feel hollow, like something is wrong with me at my core. I don’t just feel sad; I feel broken. I break down into uncontrollable sobs every few hours, and I don’t even know why. I just know that whatever is happening, OCD is taking full advantage of how vulnerable I feel. Is this what MDD feels like? Everyone tells me I have it, and it’s been confirmed by my psych, my pcp, and my therapist, but I still can’t seem to fully see it. I don’t know how to separate what’s OCD from what might be another disorder. I’m sorry to anyone also going through such a hard time, my heart goes out to you 🤍
Hi everyone☀️ has anyone ever vented to a friend without knowing it is a compulsion? Meaning like you believe the thoughts so much in your head you vent to them and they agree with you? Which then fuels your obsessions about your relationship even more? I have really done that less lately the more I have learned about my ROCD, but wanted to know if anyone else experiences this? It’s so hard when we think we are just venting and then someone agrees or goes along with the obsession because they don’t understand the OCD..which then fuels my ROCD 😭 idk if I’m making sense lol hopefully someone understands
I've had this app for awhile and was really nervous to post,comment or like anything.I still am,and frankly I've been having a really rough time which mostly includes ocd symptom,guilt/shame and agoraphobia which is not a fun combo but a small part of me is so tired of hiding and feeling awful all the time,even if at times I feel like I deserve it.I've been wanting to dabble into my hobbies like drawing or gaming but even my hobbies have been stressful & these negative feelings have been so awful for so long that I feel like I'm standing between two roads all the time yet feel horrified and worried either path when it comes to almost any decision will be wrong or not worth it in the end(and I hate that I feel like so.).I'm sure people can relate but the heavy loneliness and dehumanizing feelings is so awful,it's so good at it too.😭 I'm not diagnosed yet but I share alot of symptoms (interested to figure that out about myself soon.),but until I get medical insurance figured out I don't think I'll have access to professional help yet so for now I've just been watching some professionals online and I might finally read 'Freedom From Obsessive Personality Disorder' and see what it can offer.ANYWAYS,I'm trying to force myself to post so I can to people irl and online in any way I can train my brain to not stay so terrified of everything/everyone so,how has your day been?I hope it's been going well,if you've read this book or have any good suggests please feel free to let me know!
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