JaJa205

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

Mass Shootings

Hi everyone. I just have a question. Anytime mass shootings go on, I start to feel extremely anxious. & then I have “could this ever be me?” or “what if this happens to me some day?” thoughts. I started feeling guilty and wondering if I may have characteristics of a mass shooter or something. Like I start to compare myself to them. I guess in an attempt to correct my wrongdoing before it happens. I definitely don’t want that to happen to me. but it’s something that runs through my mind every time. Does anyone else experience these hard, horrific moments? Would this be considered a part of harm OCD?

Jesse M.

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

When my brain says "what if" or starts to do comparisons, it's a pretty strong signal that my OCD is talking (harm, suicidal, health are my big themes)

JaJa205

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@Jesse M. those are my biggest themes as well. living a nightmare!

Jesse M.

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@Janiqua G. Nightmare yes. But also: we get to know what things scare us most. So we get to know what's most important to us because of how much it scares us. Imagine how many people go through life not ever knowing what's truly important to them deep down. In a roundabout way, we are fortunate to know what's truly important to us.

JaJa205

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@Jesse M. I definitely agree. Thank you.

joshuap

Date posted: 2y

It really sounds like harm OCD. I can really recommend the Youtube channel "OCD and Anxiety". I think he really explains a lot of stuff about OCD really well.

JaJa205

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@joshuap I will look into that. thank you.

Joseamica

Date posted: 2y

I experienced that Exactly, it’s the worst thing I can hear or saw. I confirmed over the time that ocd manifests on your own fears and not what actually you are.

Joseamica

Date posted: 2y

@joseamica So don’t worry, if you get on the spiral the ocd will get smarter, and don’t try to avoid the sensation, just see that feeling as temporary

JaJa205

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@joseamica I greatly appreciate your outlook on this. I just felt that I was alone and I didn’t wanna feel crazy or removed from realty. that’s also one of my biggest fears… I don’t want to use this as reassurance but I really genuinely felt that I was the only person to feel this way.

Jesse M.

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@Janiqua G. You're not the only person!

Joseamica

Date posted: 2y

@Janiqua G. You are not alone! What I figure out is that if you find a way to see thought pasa instead of getting hooked the ocd will have no arms on you.

Joseamica

Date posted: 2y

@joseamica Not easy at all, that is what ocd means 😜 but there is not a single person with ocd that has done a thing they thought.

anxietea

Date posted: 2y

i don’t experience exactly in the same way, but it do get this same emotion. it’s hard as you feel like you’re completely seperate from everyone else but it’s ocds tricks, you have to remind yourself “maybe, maybe not” you can’t tell the future and it’s the only thing that actually worked to calm my ocd

Nell.

Date posted: 2y

Yeah i feel the same! And the fact that it happens so often just makes it worse. But I definitely have thoughts as well.

JaJa205

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@Nell. this makes it so much harder to get through it too.

Nell.

Date posted: 2y

@Janiqua G. It really does :( I wish I had a solution for us. I think we may just be highly sensitive people and feel so much empathy that we place ourselves in others too which is good for a majority of cases but the bad ones not so much, does that make sense?

JaJa205

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@Nell. that makes perfect sense. I’m highly empathetic.

Nell.

Date posted: 2y

@Janiqua G. I think it benefits us in many ways but yeah it’s hard when you see bad news frequently and think about the “what ifs”

Jesse M.

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

And to answer your question: yes! I experience this horror. It gets easier but it still stinks.

Caas

Date posted: 2y

Yeah I understand. I do the same tho not with shooters but like serial killers and stuff. It sucks because I love crime tv shows and stuff but that thought always pops in my head. Anyways you’re not alone :)

samlovesjesus

Date posted: 22w

how do i know if i have OCD?

so this all started not too long ago, for literally no reason at all. but one day i got a random intrusive thought about harming others and it freaked me out bad. since then i’ve been non stop focusing on it and im genuinely scared that i am, or gonna end up like those sick people that have documentaries about them. i’ve never had these types of thoughts before and after me and my mom looked a lot of stuff up we think i have OCD cuz a lot of the stuff it was saying was accurate to me. to anyone in here, does this sound like OCD to you? i’ve always been a nice loving person and these thoughts freak me out so bad and make me feel like i’m a bad gross person. it got to the point i don’t even like looking at myself anymore. i just wanna go back to normal man. another thing to add, when i would explain this to my mom even though i was telling the full truth on how crappy this made me feel it felt like i was lying almost? but i know i wasn’t deep down. i’m just scared that what if i act on something or get in my head too much you know?

Aphid123

Date posted: 22w

Is this even OCD?

Hey so a couple months ago (7-8) I remember being upset at my family member. Like she was talking too much while I was annoyed and remember wanting her to be quiet. I got an intrusive thought like a really bad image of doing something really bad to her, and my hand twitched to the side a little? Like it felt like I was about to?! And I remembered thinking "if I do this, I'll get in trouble". I got up and left to the bathroom and felt horrified! I was thinking "did I want to act out? Did the only reason I didn't act out was because of getting in trouble? If there was no consequences, would have I done it?! Does this mean this whole time I've been using OCD as an excuse?" I remember I couldn't sleep for 3 nights because of how bad the anxiety was, I was crying and I felt very guilty like I should turn myself in to a mental hospital. I couldn't eat for many days or be near her because of that thought and twitch I had! I'm worried it was an impulse or I actually wanted to hurt her. And even to this day I still ruminanate about this. Like last night I couldn't sleep well I kept waking up every two hours and asking myself "am I capable?" I couldn't eat last night. Sometimes I move on from it like I forget that happened but when I remember, I feel distressed about it! I don't want to be an evil person or do bad actions towards anyone! I'm even scared to be angry because of this because I'm scared I have more "chance" of acting out due to anger. Like was it an impulse and I held back? Is this even OCD? Please help, I'm really scared!

emmagracee

Date posted: 13w

Hey!! Need help kinda urgently

So I have harm ocd for sure and I get triggered by some m1rder cases like for some reason my brain gets latched to them and the perpetrators my brain goes ‘what if they’d find you attractive’ ‘would you be one of their victims’ and it feels like they’re watching me, if that makes sense, like they’re watching me, is this a symptom of any type of OCD? Please no judgement I’m super scared and I hate that my brain does this

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