I felt like this when I woke up and I still do. The intensity OCD is willing to go to make you believe it's lies is beyond me.
It is so bad that I cried my eyes out a few seconds ago and ots not fun.
I have lots of OCD themes happening at once.
I have intrusive thought a lot and even the obsessions within one theme switch all the time.
When my SO-OCd is active, I have intrusive thoughts about being lesbian or bi, then if I have another theme rush in all while that is happening and then I have intrusive thoughts about wanting to be a guy, and because I chose to be childfree I have intrusive thought about wanting to be a mother and these switch out with each other alot.
My life was changed bc of this and not in a good way.
Some days I can handle them and just acknowledge these thoughts and move on, and on days like today it takes a toll on me and make me feel like im losing my identity and my sanity every singe day I wake up to the time I go to sleep.
Even when I sleep I can't escape my OCD themes
It makes you have urges, intrusive feelings, and sensations, so when youre actually living your truth, you feel anxious becasue your feelings arent matching what you actually love and like because of OCD.
To anyone who resonated with this post, i want you to know that OCD is chornic, and it honestly suck to hear that, but i belive you can get past these difficult (and false) feelings OCD love to pushes upon or lives to make us miserable.
You are not your OCD! You are you and OCD can try, but it can't take that away from you, so keep fight everyone!!💖✨️💫