- Date posted
- 2y ago
Having a bad hocd relapse
Idk how I should react to the thoughts anymore it all just feels too real. I'm having more feelings, anxiety and urges than thoughts so it's really difficult to cope.
Idk how I should react to the thoughts anymore it all just feels too real. I'm having more feelings, anxiety and urges than thoughts so it's really difficult to cope.
i understand the pain :( the best way to deal is accept the feelings are there but not allowing them to control you. do not perform any compulsions or checking. do something to focus your mind on something else, i know its hard with OCD especially since your brain makes it to be something 24/7 but still, do yourself a favor and give yourself a deserved mental relaxation break.
Yeah it happens have u tried using humor?
Yeah I've tried every response, excercise, music, maybe maybe not etc nothing works bro
Then your doing some form of reinsurance bro like yeah some form or r u still trying to like figure it out in your brain ? Also is any other obsessions kicking in as well at the same time ??
My obsessions switch all over the place once Hocd doesn't have the hook I have random other obsessions I stress about but hocd is the worst one and yes I still try to figure it out because if I don't I feel like idk who I am and that's what scares me the most being someone I'm not. I just want to return to how my life was before.
@NeverGiveUp Yeah my brain is starting to. Do the same but yeah u gotta stop trying ik how hard it is I deal with it all day but trust me you will feel discomfort but trust me it will never get better if u keep trying to figure it out but yeah my ocd wants to attach it feel to a new theme but remember it doesn't matter what theme it is it's all ocd u have to work with it the same way as everything
@Jack-o-lantern True the theme doesn't matter and all OCD is treated the same it's just extremely difficult when its a theme that causes urges, loss of attraction, low sex drive and loss of identity. Ima try not figureing it out and delaying my compulsions for now.
@NeverGiveUp Ohh ik it sucks bro but once u stop you'll be better
Pocd feels real again and I can’t tell if I’m actually attracted or not. can’t believe it got this bad again. I used to be able to go “no I don’t like that, go away” and now it feels like I do like it and want it, and it’s starting to linger longer so it feels more real. I’m avoiding checking but I’m so scared that what if it’s true. Is it because I have not been doing my exposures? I’m not sure, but every time a 14 year old person comes to my head, I keep hearing something go “they’re attractive” and it sounds like me so I panic, and it makes me even more scared because I’m not feeling bad about it??? I saw some kid at Walmart that had long black hair and my brain kept saying shit and no matter how much I say I don’t feel that way, it won’t shut up, i want to check 1000 times to make sure. But I know it’s not worth it. I’m trying so hard
Lately my OCD has been very horrible, it’s been more convincing than ever to the point where I’m genuinely convinced that I like this stuff, when I get a thought, I’ll hear my intrusive thoughts go “oooh, I like that, I’d do that.” and I just don’t freak out nor feel bad, I just feel like I like it even more, and feel like I would do/act on it and like it, and the feeling is strong and it lingers forever? It genuinely feels like I do, and I’m just lying now, i can’t tell if I make these thoughts worse or anything All I remember mostly just being like confused sometimes when these thoughts happen, but since I’m getting strong emotions that I like it, my brain says that means I did and I’m worried about that being true because I don’t understand nor know It’s like I am resisting to like this stuff now, it’s even tougher now than it was before
Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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