Also if I'm accepting uncertainty for recovery would that mean after I recover I'll be back to my normal sexuality or does that mean I'm accepting their could be a chance I'm bisexual? Because that's why hocd is difficult for me because I've always only loved women sexually and romantically.
I think recovery would mean that the questions might still pop up but they won't bother you and you'll just automatically dismiss them or laugh them off. In terms of uncertainty I just think maybe that question just won't bother you and you won't be analysing it. So something more like trust in yourself, rather than always actively thinking you could be bisexual, if that makes sense. I think researching makes it feel more real because you're fuelling the doubt that OCD brings up, so through doing that compulsion you're allowing a 1% possibility feel like OCD's 99% probability.
Probably but hey we gotta stay maybe that's me I could be that 1 % but hey fuck it but yeah u gotta trust ur self in a way because tbh this is like any other theme just well we dwelled in it too long 😂