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Is the constant checking, researching, making up scenarios to check arousal, comparing stories etc all making hocd feel more real?
Is the constant checking, researching, making up scenarios to check arousal, comparing stories etc all making hocd feel more real?
Yes, the checking and reassurance seeking feel good in the moment, but it acts as reinforcement for the worrying. Your OCD learns that every time it worries or calls out for attention with intrusive thoughts it gets rewarded with checking and reassurance so the rut you dig only gets deeper. Best to break the trap by accepting the uncertainty and say “I don’t need to answer this right now” and keep on with what you were doing.
In short; yes, it is. I've watched a video from Ali Greymond and she talks about how the more you go on websites, and forums (you know which ones I'm talking about🙃), etc., it will make your OCD worse. This is because your OCD finds new things to throw at you to make you more anxious and keep you stuck in the cycle of Anxiety; which in turn makes your OCD last longer than it needs to. If you want the link to the video, you can let me know! I hope this helps💙✨️💫
That's so true. I am here today because I looked through forums and websites and subreddits. If I hadn't, I mightve been able to recover way before it got so bad.
Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
Anyone else with HOCD get thoughts of like "people in denial try to distract themselves" or anything along those lines when just trying to move on from the thoughts. Having a pretty bad episode this morning at least anxiety wise.
Im just wondering…how many hours a day do you spend thinking about your fear. I spend around 3-9 hours or sometimes more thinking about sexual orientation but i still doubt that i have hocd. I feel like im just in denial and im so scared.
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