NeverGiveUp
- Date posted
- 2y
Question
Is the constant checking, researching, making up scenarios to check arousal, comparing stories etc all making hocd feel more real?
Eric23Eric23
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
Yes, the checking and reassurance seeking feel good in the moment, but it acts as reinforcement for the worrying. Your OCD learns that every time it worries or calls out for attention with intrusive thoughts it gets rewarded with checking and reassurance so the rut you dig only gets deeper. Best to break the trap by accepting the uncertainty and say “I don’t need to answer this right now” and keep on with what you were doing.
Acekid128Acekid128
- Date posted
- 2y
In short; yes, it is. I've watched a video from Ali Greymond and she talks about how the more you go on websites, and forums (you know which ones I'm talking about🙃), etc., it will make your OCD worse. This is because your OCD finds new things to throw at you to make you more anxious and keep you stuck in the cycle of Anxiety; which in turn makes your OCD last longer than it needs to. If you want the link to the video, you can let me know! I hope this helps💙✨️💫
Meg JohnsonMeg Johnson
- Date posted
- 2y
That's so true. I am here today because I looked through forums and websites and subreddits. If I hadn't, I mightve been able to recover way before it got so bad.
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- Date posted
- 24w
Hocd is literally a clown in my head.
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- Date posted
- 23w
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user74128588493
- Date posted
- 15w
hocd and scared it’s internalized homophobia
I’ve been struggling with HOCD for years, and it started with an intrusive thought about being gay when I was younger. It came up at age 12 and ever since, I’ve been trapped in a cycle of doubt and anxiety. I obsess over whether or not I’m secretly gay, even though I don’t feel that way at all. What makes it worse is the fear that I might have internalized homophobia, and that’s why I’m having these obsessive thoughts. I worry that my anxiety is a sign that I’m repressing something or rejecting part of myself. It feels like my mind keeps repeating the same question—am I gay?—and no matter how much reassurance I get, the fear doesn’t go away. I used to pray for my family members, fearing that if I didn’t, something bad would happen to them, and now it feels like I have to control these thoughts, or something will go wrong. For a while, it was quieter, but a week ago, the thoughts spiraled up again, and now the anxiety feels overwhelming again. It’s exhausting, and I don’t know how to break free from this constant loop of doubt. Has anyone dealt with the fear of internalized homophobia alongside HOCD? How do you manage the anxiety that comes with it?
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