Why does it feel so real?

I get that checking, researching and giving reassurance/doing compulsions makes it worse but why can't I find an answer? Before all this I've had multiple girlfriends, wanted a wife and kids in the near future and was happy with life but now it feels like I'm a completely different person (not for the best either) I miss my old self I miss how I use to feel about my girlfriend. If I accept the thoughts that necasserially doesn't mean the thoughts are true since if I have a thought I'm a billionaire it doesn't mean I am one but why is OCD making it feel like if I accept these thoughts that means I am gay or bi? It's so confusing I just want to be myself again.

Username: 2021To2022

Date posted: 65d ago

I'm sorry man, I definitely relate. I think you can successfully reap the benefits of going through treatment, and you'll be back to your awesome self again.

Username: NeverGiveUp

Date posted: 65d ago

I really hope so man, I'm so confused honestly it's no longer the thoughts that bother me I can happily deal with thoughts it's just the loss of attraction and false attraction that bothers me the most. It makes me feel As if I've lost my own identity.