- Username
- Raider916
- Date posted
- 481d ago
- Magical Thinking OCD
- "Pure" OCD
Compulsions and Counting
Im having a really hard time lately with mental compulsions and counting. The mental compulsions are usually positive thoughts to counter any negative intrusive thoughts. I do compulsions in multiples of 6 positive thoughts, usually, with the 21st and 23rd compulsions feeling "just right" without a negative intrusive thought out of 24 total, or I start over. Then that snow balls into doing the multiples groups of 24, into hundreds. Ive been stuck on doing a certain amount of compulsions before the minute on the clock changes, pr trying to do them before someone finishes their sentence when talking to me. There are others too, but these have been the main things lately. The anxiety and urge can feel so "life or death", which is ridiculous because they are only thoughts. Im spending at least 12 to 16 hours per day doing this lately. Does anyone else have similar counting, or mental compulsion patterns? I was doing well for years, then hit a bad ocd phase a couple of months ago, and have been feeling worse. Ive started a new job recently, but the ocd is affecting my work and my relationships with loved ones. I know im not going to feel like this forever, and neither are you. I want my life back. Thanks for listening.