Cody

Date posted: 2y

I need help asap

I constantly get feelings that I’m promising God things or somehow making deals with him. I don’t mean to but I can’t stop. It’s an intrusive thought that replays constantly. Anyways, I was watching the fights tonight, and I got it in my head that if one fighter didn’t win, I would do my most common compulsion, which is holding my breath for 2 minutes straight. I know that sounds crazy but it used to be possible for me. I could go almost 2:30 when I was at best. (I used to do this compulsion constantly) I feel as though in this agreement, I said that “either (I’m not comfortable sharing the consequence) or I have to hold my breath for 2 minutes straight”. The fighter I needed to win LOST… and now I feel as though I must do the promise or the consequence will happen. Please tell me anything, I’m desperate for help. I also fear as if I don’t hold my breath for that long or atleast try to I’m somehow weak.

Louise b

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

Consequences that you made not god… I don’t want to feed into your compulsion so I’m going to try not to while speaking about the truth of god. as a believer I desire for you to know this about him. He loves you more than you could ever imagine, and with that being said you could make 100000 promises to god and not keep them and he will still be good to you. Because that is his nature and who he is. Good, kind, understanding, loving, gentle and so many more lovely things. The one thing I gathered the most out of this whole thing is the way you view god. And I used to view god the same way, I had similar thoughts to this but my compulsion was different. And let me tell you that god is not a punisher, right now all you are doing is punishing yourself by thinking god will punish you. And that is a lie, he will not. Because he knows you’re struggling and he knows this is hard but it’s not your battle to face it’s gods. I will remind you of this and I ask you to say it out loud. God loves me, god is not mad at me, god knows my pain, god understands me, god is kind, god is loving, I am special to god. That is the truth. When you’re filled with uncertainly speak the truth.

Cody

Date posted: 2y

@Louise b It’s crazy because I’ve talked to my family about similar ocd situations like this and they’ve told me almost the exact same thing you have, so that’s almost confirmation in a way that God is trying to tell me how silly this is and that it’s NOT and has NEVER been what He intended. Thank you for sharing your wisdom, it may have just saved me 2 minutes of agony

Louise b

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@Cody Of course and I want you to know I understand how real it feels. But I really can promise you that this is just a lie the enemy sells you try to take you from what god has in store for you. He’s getting desperate these days and if he’s messing with you then god has some serious goodness planned for your life !

Cinnamoroll

Date posted: 2y

My therapist has me limiting compulsion times. So...if you feel you must, only do it for 30 seconds. If you do it many times, only do it twice. It's a bit tough at first, but it gets easier as you give it less and less time, and less control of your life!

Cody

Date posted: 2y

@SaraBeara Thank you, I’ve never heard this before! Sounds like you’re in good hands :)

Louise b

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

And I do believe that this is god letting you know because I haven’t been on this app in a long time and your post was one of the first I saw. God works in amazing ways!

Cody

Date posted: 2y

@Louise b So true. It took a second for me to truly grasp everything you just told me, but it changed my entire view of the situation. That says a lot, because my anxiety is spiked. Thank you so much. God must have good things in store for you too, you’re a messenger :)

Louise b

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@Cody That’s so good I’m so thankful!! And I would also like to say that this is truly like mine blowing amazing because the first post I clicked on was a post you commented on and I saw your username was cody and that immediately made me think of my boyfriend because that’s his name as well which also immediately made me think “is this a sign from god” and you said “god says the truth sets you free so if the thought doesn’t set you free than it’s not the truth” and that gave me instant peace because I’ve been struggle with my thoughts lately and it made me think about how at peace I feel with my bf (I struggle with relationship thoughts). WOW HOW FREAKING AMAZING. That you blessed me and I was able to help you. God is good

Louise b

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@Cody Mind**

Cody

Date posted: 2y

@Louise b Ohhh that’s where I remember you from! So we were both used by God simultaneously to help each other. God is absolutely amazing. Maybe God knew those words would hit home a lot harder for you if He used your bf’s name as well🤷🏼‍♂️😁

Cody

Date posted: 2y

@Louise b Thank you so much. You have no idea how heavy your words were for me.🫶🏼

Cody

Date posted: 2y

@Cody This is seriously crazy. Wow. Praise Jesus

yrstol

Date posted: 2y

Hi I had this exact obbsession(different compulsions though. For a while and it was absolutely rough. So I hope your doing ok. I really didn’t have a golden bullet that broke my obsession but all I can say is that a promise is something you like CHOOSE and that all these thoughts are ocd and that God isn’t unfair. Think like a friend who is very understanding times 10 that’s God

yrstol

Date posted: 2y

Another thing you might also be interested to think about is like God could never require you to sin but you could have a thought like “I have to sin if this fighter doesn’t win” which means it’s not a message or promise to God it’s just a random thought flying by like a fly

Cody

Date posted: 2y

@yrstol Thank you so much for your words of wisdom. I’ll remember that🫶🏼

yrstol

Date posted: 2y

@Cody Of course, hope you can have some relief from ocd very very soon

Cody

Date posted: 2y

Just wanted to let you guys know, I checked today, and the “consequence” that I feared was prayed away. It never happened :) It has now been confirmed to me in a way I’ll remember that no amount of anxiety/fear is stronger than the love of Christ. The love He has for us is something else 🙌🏼

Cody

Date posted: 2y

@Cody https://youtu.be/TRyzr8mb9Xc ♥️

Anonymous

Date posted: 25w

Religious OCD

Hey all. I need help. I am sitting on my bathroom floor freaking out and convinced that all my work towards getting better has gone out the window. I am so scared of the “bad guy” getting me all the time. I constantly feel like I have to prove to God that I don’t mean these awful feelings and thoughts that I have about the bad guy. I’ve had trouble sleeping tonight, going in and out of consciousness, all while dealing with bad thoughts going in and out of my head. Finally I woke up and am flooded with “you have so many thoughts and feeling that you let slide while you were trying to sleep. You had thoughts that you accepted the bad guy and you didn’t dispute them before you tried to move on. You have so much to answer for.” So now I’m sitting here in my bathroom floor hysterically crying and begging God to believe me when I say I don’t any of these thoughts or feelings… please someone help

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 22w

I’m panicking pls help

The compulsive praying for harm on others is back. I know compulsions are a choice, but right now, it feels impossible not to do them. I was spiraling because I thought about losing my boyfriend, and that scared me so much. But then, my brain twisted it with thinking that I would feel liberated and find comfort and new love if my boyfriend were “out of the way” and to this I almost felt excited? I don’t want to lose him. I don’t want him to die or go away. I don’t want him to be gone. But then, that spiraled into these awful thoughts where I felt like I had to pray for harm or death on him. I don’t know why I feel the urge to do this. It doesn’t feel like it will make anything better; it just makes me feel like it’s more likely to happen. I feel trapped in them. I don’t understand why my brain keeps doing this, can anyone help? Please

nunu

Date posted: 14w

Need help please reply don't let me alone

I have listen somewhere that a person will die after 3 days if he or she will take false swear oath of a particular place I have religious and blasphemous thought ocd and my mind manipulate me to take oath he fears me my mind manipulate me 24 by 7 to take the oath I resist it now my mind has develop strange thing I have death fear also whenever thought come I am going to die blasphemous thoughts comes and abusive thoughts comes againts God and holy spirits and a voice Lound in my mind to take oath of abusive words against them death fear mix with anger that they are not giving me life and all such things occurred I know it's not good but that time I cannot control on myself now after that my fear of die after 3 days develop my mind says to me you have take a false oath now I am weeping and shivering I have taken wrong oath i will die but I cannot control myself that time now I am unable to understand what is this. My brain force me to take oath with mix of anger hate against them I think I don't love them. It's so painful

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