My mother killed herself today. I'm so sad. So sad. My mom. My sweet woman. Beautiful woman. Why didn't you let me help you more. I miss you. I miss you. I love you. Mama, te amo. Mama, come back please. I want to feel your arms again. Your hugs. Mama... I wanted to be your daughter for more time. I cannot be without you. Mama. I'm crying a lot. You told me not to do it in your letter. Mama. Mama. Mama.
I am so sorry! I honestly cannot even imagine the amount of pain you must be in right now. If you need to talk to someone I know the “Crisis Text Line” can be a great place to find anonymous chat support. Sending you a virtual hug, I know any words I can say won’t help how you are feeling. Just know we all care about you.
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I am very sorry for your loss. I too cannot imagine how painful it is for you now. I had a cousin pass from suicide this past summer—it's an incredibly tough circumstance to handle. I am sending out my prayers, my condolences, and my support to you and your family. Please let us know if there is anything (as the OCD community) can do to help support you.
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The community is here for you and sending love and strength
Sending love, thoughts, and prayers!
There are no words to say to this. I am so so sorry for you and your loved ones. I am sure that there is nothing I can say to provide relief. I just hope that you are not all alone- find someone to help you through this- you need a support system, whether family, friends, or teachers- someone to help you through this. I only know that we are often far stronger than we think we are. As a mother, I can say that I would not want my children to suffer or blame themselves, a mother's love is often so deep that words cannot explain it. Your mother must have been going through something so tremendous that for whatever reason she did what she did. And that is not your fault- that is not anything to do with you. She left you a letter- it sounds like she loved you and wanted you to have some sort of peace. Please, please make sure if possible you are reaching out. If you are in school- please see a social worker or a counselor. You should not be in this alone. I am sending prayers your way.
Thank you very much. I did everything I could. I made her laugh a lot this weekend. We celebrated my birthday together. I hugged her. I kissed her. I told her that I love her many times. I told her: I'm going to come back next Friday, ok? And she told me ok. And we had a phone call before she killed herself. And she was so sweet. So happy for me. She complimented me for many things. And I told her I love her. And we said good night. My lovely mother. My sweet mother. I ran so fast to go to her house from the train station. When I saw the police outside, I felt dizzy, worried. I shocked. My mom. My sweet mom. She wrote me a letter and she talks about me a lot in his diary. She loves me very much. My sweet mama. I'll live the life she couldn't live. My lovely mama.
My heart breaks for you . Sending you the biggest amounts of love .
I am so sorry. I can’t imagine what you must be going through. Sending thoughts and prayers.
i’m so so sorry :(
I’m so sorry. You are loved. Rip mum ❤️
Today my mom broke down crying because of how much stress she feels having to take care of me, she said I can’t do anything in terms of being able to take care of myself and she’s right I can’t, she breaks down constantly because of me, I don’t know what to do, it’s been like this for years, part of me feels like the only way to save her is to kill myself, I don’t want to die, but it feels like the only way to set her free, I don’t think anyone but her would miss me anyways, I feel utterly hopeless. I’m not going to do anything to myself the voices are just SCREAMING that I need to. I can’t work, I can’t go to school, I’m trying desperately to get therapy, I don’t know what else to do, I wish I was a child again and I felt like I had a chance to be okay. I love my mom so much and she loves me and I’m killing her, I’m actually killing her, with how fuckinh worthless and pathetic I am, it’s too much, I miss being a kid.
Hi again :c I’ve been having terrible thoughts of hurting my loved ones I’ve stopped watching horror movies which is my favorite genre and can’t even watch or read anything related to violence even if it’s just a video or movie talking about it, I get triggered so fast I really miss feeling that relief with my mom I miss my mom so much and I just don’t know what to do anymore I almost committed last weekend from how scared I was and Ik your thinking will you try again? idk I’m not sure, one day I might say “no” next I’ll plan it out, but truth be told I don’t want to die I want to live a normal life, I want to stay with my mom and my family, I love my family and my grandma and my older brother..I’m so sick of feeling this feeling, I’m tired of arguing with my brain, I want to be with my mom and spend time with her like I used to, but I can’t stand that thought of hurting them it makes me shake and I feel this pain in my chest, my OCD has been trying to convince me all those crime docs and stuff I’m into turned me this way but that’s impossible since I’ve never thought like this before I’m just tired that’s all Idek know what I’m looking for saying this..prolly just to vent or to know if this will ever go away..
TW I am so utterly broken. I feel like my heart is shattered to pieces, within the span of a month I have lost someone that was like a second mother to me and someone who just passed away that was my closest connection to my great grandmother. I am having very taboo thoughts (as well as physical responses) surrounding death because of OCD, while also carrying such a massive weight of grief. Idk if taboo thoughts with death are even normal, while it is overwhelming me, I’m also so numb to grief at this point. Can anyone please give some kind of advice on how I may improve my mental health without overwhelming my family during their time of grief? I’m so tired of being strong, but right now I absolutely have to be. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
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