Wtf?

@taylebrun Wow yea that’s a great way to call them. I rmrb someone told me oh maybe you realized you dont love him that much, just imagine how i got after that i couldn’t stop thinking of the possibility of me not loving him during all this time. I got scared after because i really felt relief, as if i was glad we broke up. Like ok no more thoughts now bc we not together. But i guess that’s the compulsion there. I hope we get better, it’s been worse this week. Like i feel irritated, i see him and it’s like idk him sometimes, like disconnected i would say, like i cant enjoy nothing because in my mind all i hear is we going to break up, that i dont see a future with him, like i dont see us together in a house or having kids or even in bed, it’s really disturbing. I want to be ok again. Whats adding to my ocd is that i made bad decisions in the relationship so i also experience excessive guilt, and cant let go of the past so i think my ocd has latched to my mistakes, making it impossible to forgive myself, move on from that, and be happy.

@Anonimo05 I have so many intrusive thoughts, it’s too much. i’ve also thinked that i look too old for him, or that i deserve another person, i’ve compared him to other people from the past, i was convinced that i like my ex when i know i dont want to be with that person. 😭

@Anonimo05 You literally sound just like me. We’ve got this, it’s just OCD. Just sit with the uncertainty, trust me I know it’s easier said than done. We can do it!

@Anonimo05 That’s why im also scared because i think what if i never feel better and im always thinking what if i want to be with my ex, what if i see myself with him and stuff like that. Any advice??

@Anonimo05 You said it yourself “what if?” If these thoughts cause you distress let them. Think to yourself, “thank you for those thoughts brain” it sounds stupid but it’s not accepting nor denying these thoughts. Soon enough your brain should latch on to something else and then you do the same technique again. People have thousands of thoughts a day. We get these thoughts about our partner and they stick out to us because our relationships are the most important things to us. We put negative feelings on them, which in turn makes us feel upset, anxious, guilty, angry, etc when we have them. You’re not going to be lovey Dovey with your partner everyday, somedays they will feel “meh”. That’s okay!!!

@taylebrun Wow yes, so true! Thanks for replying❤️🫶🏼 i needed this conv, not for reassurance but it’s nice to know im not alone, that despite all things i need to be strong. I just dont want to give up bc of my anxiety and ocd.

@Anonimo05 We’ve got this! Happy holidays!!

@Anonimo05 Some days im excited to go out, and other’s im not at all. Everything is a trigger, and i feel exhausted because of it.

@taylebrun Thanksss u too!

@Anonimo05 Idk I get bombarded with thoughts thinking that we’re not right for each other and common Rocd thoughts then I almost break up with him last night and now I feel in love again. It’s so exhausting

@taylebrun I’ve felt like that as well. Or sometimes i’ve even had the thought that it’s better to break up, because we are not compatible or because i have a lot of mental health issues and we’re not good for each other. Something that has caused me a lot of anxiety is that i believe that if we break up i’ll experience relief. One day we kind of broke up and i think i felt relief but in reality i didnt want to lose him. Has that happened to you? Where you actually feel something? I read that sometimes ocd can make you have “feelings” but sometimes feelings are not facts!