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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
OCD or God giving me a sign?
Every time I prayed for “clarity” somebody other than my boyfriend would pop up. What does that mean. Even tho I want him 😭😭😭
Every time I prayed for “clarity” somebody other than my boyfriend would pop up. What does that mean. Even tho I want him 😭😭😭
First I am sorry that you are having a difficult time. OCD is a real jerk. The truth is that ocd knows that you value prayer and your relationship with God, so it is going to attack you there. So, when you are having these intrusive thoughts during or after prayer, try and sit with the anxiety and not try to figure it out. Instead of wondering why someone else pops up when you pray for clarity, when the intrusive thought comes in, sit with the anxiety - perhaps you may say to ocd, well I never thought of that, or we’ll, that’s interesting. And then leave it at that. OCD is trying to bait you to figure it out - and there is nothing to figure out. I hope this helps.
@Jeffrey What if it’s someone I had a crush on before. He’s like a really good friend of mine. 😵💫
@_Meh It sounds to me like OCD is trying to force you to get 100% certainty about your relationship. I would encourage you to try not to figure anything out - because the more you try the stronger the ocd need for certainty. Perhaps a response to the ocd could be - well maybe this person is the one - but right now I am with my boyfriend and I am going ti enjoy my time with him and we will see what happens in the future.
He’s ur top priority I don’t think it’s anything involved with god lol
Best way to tell if it's you or good is to go to His word 💛 and spend quiet time with him, make the time to hear from him. I remember once feeling so strong the urge to confess something to my spouse about my past and genuinely asked God to give me a clear sign whether or was time to do it or not and i believed he would make it clear as he's done in the past and he didn't give me the sign i asked for so i took it to mean it wasn't time yet even though i felt so strongly that i should
Let me tell you how I’ve been going through this for past 2 years!!!! I feel you. Talking about it right now is almost like ERP for me. I feel you. It is scary, and it is just thoughts
ERP would have you sit in the uncertainty- maybe these are signs from God and maybe not- I often tell people if it sounds like OCD, walks like OCD, then it's probably OCD- it seems like you already likely know the answer to this question on a logical level. And we know that OCD cannot really be argued with logic. So we have to respond to the thought differently- not try and logic our way out, not try and solve it with "certainty" instead it will mean allowing yourself to feel anxiety and distress and seeing that you can tolerate these tough feelings. Maybe you aren't supposed to be in this relationship, maybe you are, who knows. If one day you truly decide to end the relationship through a break up well then that day, that moment you can sit with those feelings but today- until you make that decision, you keep living your life.
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God* and also, it wasn't infidelity just something that'd happened to me
I’ve had so many moments of clarity with my OCD that I love my boyfriend and I’m beyond willing to go through this to be better and be with him. in the back of mind I’ve in a way known I was at least somewhat sexually attracted to women (I’m a woman) since the start of the ocd it was always like “okay. Fine, but I don’t want to date a girl” I only just realized this after the ocd started, I never really argued with this. my ocd has always revolved around if I’m romantically interested in women and not men. I’ve done so many compulsions through this year and a half and 9 times out of 10 have come to the conclusion that I don’t want to be with a woman romantically. I always end up feeling like I know I love my boyfriend. But the doubts don’t stop about whether I want to spend my life with a woman instead, my heart literally breaks to think of not being with my bf and imagining him with someone else. I don’t want to be with a woman I know deep down somewhere underneath the anxiety that that’s not what I want. It doesn’t feel natural for me, unfulfilling. I want to tell my boyfriend about the possible sexual attraction to women (ik it’s still ocd related) but I’m scared that once I tell him, I’ll realize that I actually do want to be with women and not with him. Ugh I’ve spent hours today ruminating about this after being solid in my commitment with him for a little while, I’m stuck in this loop and idk how to get out right now
I always want to get close to God and my ocd is always related to me thinking I'm going crazy however my ocd also sticks to religion it kinda pulls me away because I'm scared that I'll go crazy if I focus too much on one thing or do too much of one thing..so I went to the dentist and I was waiting on my boyfriend when this man that was speaking about God came and he was speaking to me and he kept saying I should give my life to God and I told him I want to do it on my timing and he kept saying no and after a while he showed me something in the daily bread and he turned to another women that was a the desk of the dentist and say something along the lines of me being a dead little girl if I dnt follow the word of God or something similar 😔now this makes me scared and it puts a lot of pressure on me because now idk what to do anymore, and I'm lowkey trying to change and get closer to God in some way
my relationship ocd theme is back and it hasn’t for a while. i keep having intrusive thoughts about a friend even tho i have a boyfriend of 6 years. i like do not like this person they are good looking but im not like into them. i like feel guilty for no reason and i feel like i need to tell my boyfriend even tho like we’ve been through this before and it only gets better if i tell him but if i don’t i feel like im hiding something. AHH like i don’t even wanna see that person anymore
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