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I would say keep watching, it might be at least important to learn about how different everyone’s stories are from each other, and how everyone’s timeline is different. Also, not every exposure needs to be the most anxiety triggering thing you do— maybe it could be a way to practice sitting with just a “medium” amount of discomfort, especially because you’re still anticipating some anxiety, and sitting with it without it being totally paralyzing.

Keep watching. I've been watching quite a few too. Triggering like hell, but necessary. You know, I dont want to compare stories, but my brain is too fast and the thoughts simply come, I cant help it! I just think: "stop comparing, let the thoughts come", but it seems I have no control at all.