- Date posted
- 2y
SOS function helped me
I’ve been struggling pretty bad the last few days but yesterday, I decided to refuse compulsions, though I’ll admit, I had slip ups of little self reassurances. It’s like they come to me naturally or automatically because I’ve done it so much. That’ll take some time I guess. Lol But, after I suffered through hours and hours of intense anxiety and tried to allow it to be background noise (which was super loud so it didn’t always feel like background noise) rather than front and center, I felt this crazy release and was able to do something I wasn’t able to do all day—namely, be around and enjoy someone without any fear. The clarity did come. I was so thankful to Jesus. Today has been a better day but I started struggling really bad again to where I feel that magnetic pull to compulsively pray and get reassurance from God and everyone else so I decided to try the SOS app. It did help me to get grounded and focused. I actually focused on the thought I was having and oddly felt relief from just being like “I don’t know and I don’t really have to know. I’ll just wait it out and wait for clarity.” I never ever thought I could feel relief from just being like “who knows?” Uncertainty literally scares the daylight out of me and makes everything feel a thousand times more real!! I mean, I still feel/felt anxiety but in a much more manageable way because I just allowed it to be there and felt like, “who knows?” Hoping this helps someone. I know this is so hard on all of us. I am praying for all of you. We can do this.