linds123

Date posted: 2y

Ughhh

I’m just gonna call it schizophrenia OCD because why not since that’s all my ocd revolves around right now!! This is by far the most annoying theme I’ve had so far I’m sick and tired of thinking I’m going to go mentally crazy! I legit make up scenarios in my head that have to do with seeing things and hearing things and things coming after me and also stuff controlling my mind which I know isn’t true but my ocd of course is making it so believable 🙄 I’m just soooo afraid I’m going to get this mental disorder it’s not even funny… I can say this theme seems to be more difficult to manage because I have alot more what ifs I feel like then I did with my harm ocd which is weird ughhh well on the bright side I start my first erp session tomorrow so wish me luck also I don’t want to tell them what I’m going through because what If they say that’s what I have but I know I’m going to have to open up my best this is just so hard 😓😭

Theocdguitarist

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

I had a horrible mental breakdown over schizophrenia OCD 2 months ago. I wasn't able to work or really get out of bed. Now, 2 months later, I work 5 days a week and have started doing what I love again :) some days are more of a struggle than others, but ERP has changed my life. My therapist had me watch a movie called "Fear of Rain" as an exposure. it's about a girl who has schizophrenia. Definitely talk to your therapist first, but this movie was a great first step for me to overcoming schizophrenia OCD:) good luck!

linds123

Date posted: 2y

@Theocdguitarist That’s how I am right now I don’t even want to get out of bed or leave my bedroom or even go out in public it’s getting ridiculous! Thank you so much I will definitely try and watch that! Was that part of your erp is to watch someone who has it? That kind of sounds scary to me that’s why I’m asking lol

linds123

Date posted: 2y

@Theocdguitarist Oh nvm I missed the part where you said that was part of your exposure my bad well that’s awesome I will try that and ask mine about it as well! I’m just happy this is Normal for ocd cuz I was questioning it for a min lol

tama12233

Date posted: 2y

Wow interesting, I went from harm OCD to schizophrenia themed OCD too! It's horrible and I wouldn't wish it upon anyone. Best of luck for your first ERP session. Are you doing it through Nocd? Congratulations on taking that first step. I personally haven't started ERP yet but hope to soon :)

linds123

Date posted: 2y

@tama12233 Well how this happened was I started getting ocd after I had my first baby 4 years ago and for 3 n half year I doubt with harm ocd and that’s it then as time went by I started over coming my harm ocd by myself and it was to the point like a year ago where I had little to no bad thoughts at all but like 7 months ago I found out I’m pregnant and me and my aunt were talking on the phone like 4 months into my pregnancy and our phone call is what triggered my ocd to spiral out of control because she was talking to me about my great uncle who had schizophrenia and telling me all the stuff he went through and that really scared and triggered me so that’s how I got this new theme and I can say I do not miss having full ocd again it sucks 😓 I’m also scared it’s gonna get even worse after having my baby because that’s when ur hormones drop dramatically and that can definitely mess with your mental state even more 😩

linds123

Date posted: 2y

@tama12233 Also thank you!! I’m not doing erp through here but I am doing it at a place near me but it’s still over zoom

Jesse M.

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

I started with health concerns, harm, and suicidal themes and then grew some new ones including health concern about schizophrenia and pedo. For me ERP worked really well for my concerns about schizophrenia. I still have my original 3 themes but it's way more possible to manage now thanks to ERP and meds. I don't really deal with the schizophrenia or pedo concerns very often any more.

linds123

Date posted: 2y

@Jesse M. That’s awesome your managing it good now! Was erp hard at first?

68273

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@Jesse M. How long did you do erp

Jesse M.

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@linds123 I trust my therapist deeply. It was so scary to tell him about my thoughts and themes and then it was such a relief when he basically said "yeah this isn't my first rodeo" and we got to work. At this point I've told him everything and I do my exposure homework every day and it works. It's really really scary and it takes time. But you only have to do one step at a time, one exposure at a time. ERP is still hard. The point is that it's always supposed to be hard. The big thing for me is that I trust the process.

Jesse M.

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@68273 I'm about 4 months in to ERP. I feel happy about half the days and fearful/sad about half the days now. It's better than at the beginning when I felt happy very rarely.

linds123

Date posted: 2y

@Jesse M. Oh god 😭 thats gonna be my problem because it’s hard for me to trust sometimes but it’s probably the only way huh can u kind of give me an example of how erp works? You don’t have to I just am really nervous for tomorrow lol

Jesse M.

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@linds123 We make a lot of the exposures together. Harm OCD was the scariest theme for me so my first exposure was a YouTube video clip from an action movie fight scene. I watched it once a day for a week and it became less distressing.

linds123

Date posted: 2y

@Jesse M. I’m sure that was very hard at first! It’s awesome how much this helps!! I’m happy it’s getting better for you!

Jesse M.

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@linds123 Thanks! I wish you courage and trust for your first ERP. You can do hard things.

linds123

Date posted: 2y

@Jesse M. Thank you!

Shay

Date posted: 2y

This one is a nightmare. I’m struggling right now and looking for any tips as well. I just downloaded this app today

linds123

Date posted: 2y

@Shay I know I hate it sooo much 😭 it gets worse at night

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

This is my biggest theme as well! It has been horrible and definitely looking forward to when it subsides. Wishing you the best of luck!!!

linds123

Date posted: 2y

@Anonymous Me too! If it ever does 😓 my last theme lasted for 3 n half years I could not imagine going through this for that long and thank you so much I wish the best of luck to you as well!!

Cody Fournier

User type: Therapist

Date posted: 21w

OCD switches themes

I was just thinking about how OCD tries to be tricky and switches themes on us!! The amount of times I have said to myself in the past, IF ONLY I HAD THE OLDER THEME I USE TO WORRY ABOUT BECAUSE THIS NEW ONE IS SO MUCH WORSE!!! Has anyone ever experienced this before? Once I started ERP therapy, I began to really start understanding what mental/physical compulsions I was doing to really keep my OCD alive! While I did this, I would also tap into my self-compassion bucket, even when it felt like it was dry at times, because it was SO easy to judge myself for because of the sheer presence of my thoughts. I would also have the most self-compassion for myself for those taboo intrusive thoughts that really felt so strong, ego-dystonic and real!!! My OCD would hop around from theme to theme and just when I thought I figured it out (compulsion) it would hop again and make me discouraged! I noticed for me that once I really understood my compulsions, it didn't matter when the theme switched as I could tackle it at its core. If I was able to stay steadfast and resist compulsions the best I could, I started to notice that my CONFIDENCE increased in the long run! I also noticed that some of the core fears were the same for different OCD subtypes. OCD treatment is hard BUT living with OCD is harder. I have experienced subtypes including Harm OCD, ROCD, Moral Scrupulosity, Sensorimotor, Contamination, Perfectionism/Just Right, Hit and Run, Magical Thinking, Real Event/False Memory. ERP therapy allowed me to really work on stopping these compulsions and switching from theme to theme. I was fed up with what OCD took from me and I needed to do something about it. I talked to an ERP therapist and it was one of the best decisions of my life. If you are struggling, keep pushing and get the help you deserve!! You got this!!!

Anonymous

Date posted: 14w

Is schizo ocd a thing?

I have been having these fears about developing schizophrenia, it reached a point where i am starting to almost hear things or the smallest sounds and my mind tells me you're schizophrenic, and i feel this weird sensations in my ear as if someone is whispering yet i can barely hear them, the thing is i am not diagnosed yet because i never work with an OCD therapist but i study psychology so i just used what i learnt to give a meaning to my suffering, many themes of this fear have been happening before and this schizophrenia fear is the last one. I want to know what advice you can give me or ways to make my brain calm down a little bit, i also don't have and can't afford a therapist that's why i am here in the first place I also want to know more informations or experiences with this theme if anyone habe experienced it and what helped you with it I remember feeling better for a while but than i collapsed back, but i am hoping to get better soon too or anytime in the future, I don't want reassurance so make sure you be as real as you can, and thanks 🙏🏻

Imnew@this

Date posted: 13w

Therapy today.

(21+ ONLY: TRIGGER WARNING) I have therapy today and I’m nervous. I just started going to therapy and I really like my therapist. She talked to me about doing ERP and I’m really nervous about it. I’m scared to tell her the extent of my OCD, and my themes. I’m scared to tell her about my false memory OCD, because I’m scared that what I did was real and I’m just excusing it as false memory, although I have no memory of it. I’m scared that I am truly a monster and I’m using OCD as an excuse—and that she’ll find out and distance herself. I’m just scared that my whole world is gonna fall apart, all around me.

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