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- 2y
ate___ate___
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- 2y
What I did I had pocd ( I know how disgusting it can make you feel) I A) reminded myself that if I’m having thoughts about it with thinking I’m a bad person that actually means that I would never do it, ocd is based what we love the most and the worse fear behind it. Secondly what helped me cure from it completely it’s letting the thoughts come and me thinking the thoughts through in the worse possible way. That it was cured me from pocd
Jesse M.Jesse M.
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
I did exposures for pocd and it was the most horrible experience but it absolutely worked
ate___ate___
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- 2y
@Jesse M. It sucked but after a few days of letting my mind go where I didn’t I cured it. I was going nuts for 4 months but this also when I didn’t know my diagnosis which made it worse . Happy healing
Jesse M.Jesse M.
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 2y
One of the ways I know it's OCD for me is that my brain wants an answer Right Now. Like my brain is telling me there's no time, gotta figure it out. When that happens it helps me to say well brain, I can't get you an answer about whether or not I'm a monster, so we're gonna have to live with not knowing for a while, then my brain says how long, and I say a while, and let's focus on breathing, because breathing is really good for me. If it might work for you I recommend calm.com/breathe
EasonsEasons
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- 2y
Thank you. I need that. I have a lot of I have to figure this out now feelings and get distracted from just feeling the uncomfortable feelings and trying to focus on breathing
Jesse M.Jesse M.
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
I've had the what if it is real, what if I'm a monster, the self hatred and self abuse. I started therapy and medication. It got better. Slowly. You can get better too.
Jesse M.Jesse M.
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 2y
I'm here if you wanna write more.
Jesse M.Jesse M.
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
I'm not a therapist or a professional or anything but if you're in crisis you gotta reach out for help. Who can you talk with? Close family, friends, medical people?
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- Date posted
- 20w
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- 19w
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