covid

my biggest fear since the pandemic has been getting covid. testing positive, experiencing covid, having to tell loved ones to distance themselves bc i have covid, them getting it bc of me, all of that was a big factor in why i’ve been so careful. i’ve always been really careful when going out. i hardly go out because of that and i only see my bestfriend bc of covid. sure, i’ve gone out to eat, i’ve been shopping, traveled to new york and boston but i’ve never gotten covid because of how careful i am. my family tends to make fun of me because of how careful i am and how many precautions i take before leaving the house. they get irritated when i tell them to put a mask on or wear gloves. my worst fear has happened. i tested positive for covid. i don’t know how, i don’t know from who or where but it’s happened. im feeling really anxious and had an attack when i found out. with everything going on i’ve already felt pretty bad mentally and feeling bad physically has killed me. i’ve been in a series of depressive episodes earlier this month and i’m afraid it’s going to happen after testing positive. i don’t know how to make myself feel better and would really like some tips or just to be comforted :/.

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

I also struggle with health OCD and tested positive for COVID the first time on Christmas Day. I had to cancel all of my family plans and had a huge vacation that had been planned for a year that was canceled. And then my worst fear happened - I gave my husband Covid even though I was isolated and wearing a mask the second I felt symptoms. I have been having on and off panic attacks since Christmas Eve when I started feeling sick. I have been like you - very cautious this entire time, and managed to avoid Covid for this long. I have no idea how I got it either. I just want you to know that someone else out there relates to how you feel. You are not alone and other people all over the world have Covid right now for the first time and are very upset. It is ok to be anxious when you feel your worst fear has come true. Although hopefully when this is over and you are better, you will feel a strength and confidence knowing you endured your greatest fear. Since this is an OCD app, I won’t offer you reassurance. All I can say is I am in the trenches with you and encourage you to listen to the SOS feature on the app, I have found that very helpful. Don’t listen to OCDs questions. “Thanks but no thanks OCD!”

bluebubblegum7

Date posted: 2y

@Anonymous thank you so much for sharing your experience, i’m so sorry you’re going through all of that. that seems like a lot. also thank you for not feeding my ocd and being careful abt not reassuring to worsen thoughts. i really appreciate people like you who comfort people in the right ways. i hope you and your husband get well soon !

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@bluebubblegum7 Thanks. I hope you feel better soon too. We are all in this together - and you should be proud of yourself for coming on this app and asking for help. OCD sucks and it’s ok to struggle. You are not alone.

PRIV8

Date posted: 24w

This illness brings up intrusive feelings

I was told that this illness that im having now(some say its some kind of covid) is attacking people where they are the most sensitive, so it got my mental health and at first it was the fear of my health which im starting to face but now it got deeper and i have feelings of hopelessness and like a depressed feelings and thoughts like things wont get better. And i dont know where this comes from, im afraid this is actually what i believe. Dont know if its ocd or the illness actually made these problem come up what was pushed away by me... When i have these feelings my first reaction is fear and i dont know if its something i shouldnt give attention or the fear is actually bad and it makes me avoid the problem, so i should work on this depression... I dont know whats happening but its scarry and i dont like these dark thoughts. I think i suffer more because of the fear and shame of these thoughts but again i dont know if the fear and shame shows me that i dont need to give attention to these thoughts or the fear and shame actually blocks me to deal with these thoughts and feelings...

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 23w

I’m so anxious

I was doing so great for about a month, ups and downs. Now I’m riddled with anxiety. I’m trying to push through, I’ve been cooking and doing other things that make me feel productive. I had Covid like two weeks ago, felt better for 3 days (exhausted though) and boom I get hit with strep throat. My anxiety is through the roof, rejection sensitivity is all I know right now. Ruminating turned up to max volume that I keep having to slam down. I’m feeling pretty hopeless and lonely. I feel scared and full of shame. My body hurts and my throat is killing me. I’m so exhausted. I feel like I’m on 1% I just needed to vent a bit but if anyone has any advice I’d appreciate it so much

carol.xxx

Date posted: 22w

Health anxiety please help x

Hey friends… I am in a really low place regarding my health anxiety. I am absolutely terrified of cancer. Im only 17 years old and im worrying more about health then living my life its very draining. At the moment I have a very chesty cough which has lasted around two weeks and a runny nose and just full sinuses. I woke up from my sleep tonight and woke up completely wet in sweat and itchy. I am terrified in case ive got cancer. I get so so scared It genuinely is not only affecting me but everyone else around me im pulling them down too. 💔 I am UK based and recently got a job and even then its all I can think about. Im crying my eyes out scared ☹️ To anyone else going through this your not alone and its so consuming. ❤️‍🩹

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