My OCD has been a total Hell. I literally was stuck trapped in bathroom for 15hrs straight no food water or rest for days. When ever i shower/brush teeth anything of washing it takes forever! I was up for 18hrs total i started crying i was soo exhausted then i still couldn't drink anything all day my anxiety was soo high i couldnt. My severe contamination OCD stops me from everything including drinking n eating. Sooo miserable!😭
Get angry! Fight! Do the opposite of what your OCD is telling you - the resulting freak out probably won't last long because you will quickly realise that you are not dead. I filled up my car with petrol - forgot my hand sanitizer. Started to freak out - then got angry at myself and licked my hands! I didn't die. I now have our cat lying on me - he is also "a trigger" for me. But I'm going to do it again...
Yep, still alive. The cat now thinks I'm weird, but hey-ho!
You are not alone, I spent all day Monday without eating or drinking anything the whole day and 6 hrs taking a shower I was so exhausted by the end of the day that I decided to make peace with my self and I said loud "If it is my time is it my time and I started to lick everything around me :/" now I'll be the bully of my OCD I don't wanna say that I cure now, but for some reason I feel some relief knowing that I can be afraid of touching something if that imaginary stuff is already on my system.
You rock! :)
😞 sending you all the love
Thanks all of you so much! This is helpful i appreciate it lots. What's difficult is For me its not that i think something bad will happen its the intense" anxiety torture i experience. I know that when I'm rinsing my toothbrush or washing wrong.. i won't Die" its not really a fear of death" its the anxiety that freezes me and i can't do it i literally freeze and cant move so it takes loooooong to do anything because I'm constantly pausing every step because it feels soooo bad i cant tolerate it ...every thing i touch or do feels VERY bad so its hard to keep going. Its like being stabbed or on fire while your simply brushing teeth or bathing ..it just feels sooo bad its soo HARD😞
Same here, that's why I spent so much in the shower, because I was putting shampoo the wrong, because it was not enough, the body wash was not enough, the water was too hot or too cold all the thing you can think were going thru my mind. My mind was so tired that I said: well, if something is going to happen let's not make it wait and I left the shower and from the door I started to laugh saying: you are not going to win OCD.Again my OCD is still bad but every time I have an episode of anxiety I use one of these techniques and I at least I'm able to do things faster.
Looked in the mirror this morning and officially saw my ribs. Realizing how bad this is all getting and feel like there’s nothing I can do. Also my hand washing is getting worse. My hands burn and my knuckles are starting to bleed. Haven’t used the bathroom once today cause cleaning the toilet requires more energy than I have since I’m not eating ?... not eating cause I’m afraid food is contaminated. Perfectionism OCD hit me hard at work today when a coworker did something that wasn’t to my standard of perfect and I had an anxiety attack. Feel like I’m falling apart, I’m depressed, exhausted and hungry. OCD is killing me and I just want a break.
For 13 years, OCD is not just a part of my life; OCD IS my life. I cant work, Im having intrusions all day, anxiety all day, afraid of my own mind, it even caused me chronic fatigue syndrom because I did only sleep a couple of hours for years because of the compulsions I did on repeat every awake hour of every single day, no pause, not even for 5 minutes. Ive had a couple of months where it was better, like I was able to live life a little more and not being tortured 24/7. Sometimes I feel like Im the only one with OCD for so long and the only one on whom OCD has such a big impact... 😔
does your OCD get so consuming to the point that you CAN'T shower/do regular things that you would normally do? i'm not even depressed. i'm just burnt out & so overwhelmed by my own mind that i can't even shower or take a bath. & that's huge for me because i'm usually VERY clean/i always try to make sure i smell good. i'm just reaching out for support wherever i can at this point.
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