My OCD has been a total Hell. I literally was stuck trapped in bathroom for 15hrs straight no food water or rest for days. When ever i shower/brush teeth anything of washing it takes forever! I was up for 18hrs total i started crying i was soo exhausted then i still couldn't drink anything all day my anxiety was soo high i couldnt. My severe contamination OCD stops me from everything including drinking n eating. Sooo miserable!ðŸ˜
Get angry! Fight! Do the opposite of what your OCD is telling you - the resulting freak out probably won't last long because you will quickly realise that you are not dead. I filled up my car with petrol - forgot my hand sanitizer. Started to freak out - then got angry at myself and licked my hands! I didn't die. I now have our cat lying on me - he is also "a trigger" for me. But I'm going to do it again...
Yep, still alive. The cat now thinks I'm weird, but hey-ho!
You are not alone, I spent all day Monday without eating or drinking anything the whole day and 6 hrs taking a shower I was so exhausted by the end of the day that I decided to make peace with my self and I said loud "If it is my time is it my time and I started to lick everything around me :/" now I'll be the bully of my OCD I don't wanna say that I cure now, but for some reason I feel some relief knowing that I can be afraid of touching something if that imaginary stuff is already on my system.
You rock! :)
😞 sending you all the love
Thanks all of you so much! This is helpful i appreciate it lots. What's difficult is For me its not that i think something bad will happen its the intense" anxiety torture i experience. I know that when I'm rinsing my toothbrush or washing wrong.. i won't Die" its not really a fear of death" its the anxiety that freezes me and i can't do it i literally freeze and cant move so it takes loooooong to do anything because I'm constantly pausing every step because it feels soooo bad i cant tolerate it ...every thing i touch or do feels VERY bad so its hard to keep going. Its like being stabbed or on fire while your simply brushing teeth or bathing ..it just feels sooo bad its soo HARD😞
Same here, that's why I spent so much in the shower, because I was putting shampoo the wrong, because it was not enough, the body wash was not enough, the water was too hot or too cold all the thing you can think were going thru my mind. My mind was so tired that I said: well, if something is going to happen let's not make it wait and I left the shower and from the door I started to laugh saying: you are not going to win OCD.Again my OCD is still bad but every time I have an episode of anxiety I use one of these techniques and I at least I'm able to do things faster.
I have pretty bad contamination ocd. It makes it hard for me to eat enough or drink enough because of my compulsions. It’s getting pretty serious because I hardly drink enough water now. Yesterday I drank maybe two bottles of water and stopped drinking around 2 pm. It’s 10:30 am here and I’ve drank 3 glasses of water finally but that’s only because I started feeling dizzy and light headed. The room was tilting and now I feel pretty sick to my stomach because I know I’ve got to be logically dehydrated. But ocd is up to it’s tricks making me think it’s worse than what it is that maybe I’m really sick, or drugged or poisoned etc. I’ve never really had this happen before. I know logically I have to be dehydrated and this cannot continue. It scares me because I’m not even meaning for it to get this far. It’s just really hard fighting off ocd. I don’t know what to do and I can’t drive myself to therapy now because of the dizziness/lightheadedness. What’s the quickest way to get back to normal?
For 13 years, OCD is not just a part of my life; OCD IS my life. I cant work, Im having intrusions all day, anxiety all day, afraid of my own mind, it even caused me chronic fatigue syndrom because I did only sleep a couple of hours for years because of the compulsions I did on repeat every awake hour of every single day, no pause, not even for 5 minutes. Ive had a couple of months where it was better, like I was able to live life a little more and not being tortured 24/7. Sometimes I feel like Im the only one with OCD for so long and the only one on whom OCD has such a big impact... 😔
I wake up with obsessions and compulsions all day long. I can't stop them. I'm frustrated and severely depressed. I have a psychiatrist and Psychologist. I've been going through this for 35 years. Ive done ERP. At times I had a grip on things but not now. I'm at the end of my rope. I can't handle much more.
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