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- 6y
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- 6y
This is pretty classic ROCD. I’m sorry you have to deal with this. I can’t tell from your story if you have prior experience working through OCD — you mention images so maybe you’ve dealt with it in a more visual way before. Many people experience it as thoughts, not images, or even both. You’re going to want to do a few things: (1) learn about ERP therapy and mindfulness, so you can deal with the thoughts and anxiety they cause. (2) forgive yourself and give yourself some compassion. I’m concerned that you think she “deserves better” when this is something difficult happening to YOU, not her. In fact, this probably has nothing to do with her other than the fact that you really care about her and your brain works a little different because of OCD. The road ahead isn’t easy, but you can do it. Next time you’re facing these thoughts, don’t engage with them by trying to answer or understand or reason with them. Just let them happen, acknowledge them, sit with the anxiety until it passes, and then move on.
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- 6y
It’s so hard not to! But that’s the whole point: have the thought, don’t do the compulsion, slowly get better.
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- 6y
Let ask you this, say your good friend came to you with this exactly story? What insight would you tell him or her to help them. Really think about this question and lmk.
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Don't quite understand your comment
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As in, your friend comes to you with this exact story and is asking you for your help. What is it you would say to him or her
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Wish I knew. Because I don't fully understand it. Usually I can try to understand or formulate my thoughts, but not sure what this even is.
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Thanks for this pureolife. I do suffer from unique thoughts about things travelling fast (like sped up) and I can't shake them, I'll try to find a way to calm the thoughts, avoiding some things that trigger me. Although they're unique to me and trauma I experienced at a young age, they're essentially intrusive thoughts. So this is something new, but I feel so guilty about it. I never OCD manifested as thoughts like "I hate you" (for example) when you see someone you love. So if true, this is something new I have learnt. Although my thoughts are never usually anything like this, tend to be as described previously. So scared that something else may be happening to me. Thanks for your comment, really appreciate it.
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- 6y
I actually WOULDN’T recommend avoiding these thoughts. OCD is by nature paradoxical: the more you avoid or suppress the more you tell your brain “this is clearly important!” which makes them happen more often and intensely. In fact, the only way to overcome an OCD theme is to expose yourself to it purposefully: think it without responding, analyzing, or trying to neutralize it. Sit with the anxiety until it diminishes. Repeat. Over time, your brain becomes habituated to the thought and doesn’t provoke anxiety anymore. And it stops meaning as much to you. There are sections in the app on ERP therapy and ROCD. Do some more research, don’t just take it from me. The treatment is hard, but it works.
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- 6y
So what your saying is purposely think about the thoughts that trigger you and sit with the distress?
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Yup! Over time, your distress levels will go down. It can take weeks to months, it totally depends on the person. It takes a lot of bravery and grit to sit with negative emotions, but it’s the only way to heal and you’ll be a much stronger, sane person for it.
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I made a post about this before where i asked if i should set a timer for a period of time think thoughts that upset me to try and habituate to them. Your saying i should do this?
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- 6y
Lots of people start off with a timed session, yeah. Start with 5 min everyday for a week. Then 10. Then 20. You may find that you like the structure and feel safer in a timed “bad thoughts” space. But you may also decide to take the practice into the real world as it’s happening: you’re looking at your gf and think something bad, rather than try to push it away or explain it, you sit with it until it dissipates. You may use mindfulness to watch the thought happen, acknowledge it, and then let it keep floating away without holding onto it. Different techniques work for different people at different times: experiment! But never avoid. That doesn’t work.
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- 6y
Just know: it may take awhile to start feeling better and no one is perfect. If you are struggling for awhile, it’s okay. This is a sucky process but it gets better. Good luck!
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- 6y
Ok, i struggle with magical thinking ocd. So my thoughts are all over the place but ill try thinking of things that trigger me and think if them for about 45sec i think i can do that. Just going to be hard not to do a compulsion afterward lol
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- 6y
So i just set a timer for 45sec and did some erp with my obsessive thoughts, wasn’t fun lol but now the thoughts wont leave. Any suggestions?
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- 6y
If you’re trying to make the thoughts “leave” you’re doing it wrong. The whole point is to have the thoughts. And sit with the anxiety they make you feel. Eventually, the anxiety will dissipate. Repeat. There are a few steps to recovery but the first is learning to have the thoughts without anxiety or responding to them (ie trying to get rid of them, understand them, check how they make you feel, etc.) Keep at it. You do the exposure and the thoughts are happening and won’t stop. That’s okay! Let them come. They’re thoughts. They won’t hurt you. And you’re going to feel anxious. Anxiety won’t hurt you either. It’s just going to feel uncomfortable for while. When do the thoughts stop? When you actually stop caring about whether they happen or not anymore. And that takes time. You’ve done one session. Give yourself a week or two and check in to see if there’s a difference. Think in weeks, not minutes or days.
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- 24w
So pretty much I’ve been dealing with intrusive thoughts my entire life, I had no idea could’ve been symptom of OCD until maybe a year ago , I have this fear right now that I don’t actually love my fiancé and I’m not attracted to men. I am attracted to men. Let me be clear. I’m not attracted to females. I never have been and I never will be. But it’s one of the scariest thoughts I’ve ever had that I don’t actually care about the person that I would sacrifice anything for that I would do anything for. He’s pretty much the closest family that I have and I just wanna be with him for the rest of my life. A couple months ago was that I just didn’t care at all, and I didn’t have any feelings and everything that I felt was me being fake in that nothing was real. But I eventually got over that and the new thought is that I’m actually gay even though I know I’m not. And in the world we live in now where it’s be yourself be you if it comes across your mind. That’s the obvious truth. Be yourself… It’s kind of scary to think about. I just want it to leave me alone. I’m actually so scared that eventually I’ll believe it because some thoughts that I’ve learned were intrusive. I ended up starting to believe and it turned into a whole catastrophe for my life. I met this girl and she felt a certain way about her husband and then she told me that eventually I’ll feel that way and ever since then I just I haven’t gotten over this fear that I’m gonna end up feeling the same way she is. Also, I recently got over a few themes. I’m not ready to share, but I’m so proud that I got over those and I just I’m waiting for this one to leave me alone and it’s not and I’m starting to get really scared that it’s true and I don’t want it to be true. and just to be very clear I don’t care who you love what you love who you like what you identify as because you can in fact be yourself but this just doesn’t feel like me. I’m genuinely reaching out to try to get help for this because now it’s messing with our personal life. We’ve never argued so much in our entire relationship and now I realize that it’s mainly my fault because I’m detaching myself from all emotion just so that I can get over this thought I’m detaching myself from all intimacy and that’s even scarier because what if it’s not me detaching myself and it’s me just not being attracted that’s another thought I’ve hadI’ve gone all long enough so thanks.
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- 20w
So recently I have been talking to this guy and I really like him and for the past week I felt really good and happy about it, but then a sneaky intrusive thought popped up about what if in the future when and if the time comes to sleep in the same bed, I inappropriately touch him while he’s sleeping. Now I’ve struggled with sexual intrusive thoughts like that before so my brain just kept reminding me of how that thought felt the last time it came up, and the thoughts of sexually harming this person started snowballing and making me feel worse and worse. I spent most of the day crying and panicking wishing my brain could just shut down, and now all I want to do is hide from this person so I don’t get the chance to hurt him, which makes me feel even worse because I had been feeling so good about him just the other day. I was just wondering if anyone else had experienced this and if they might have any insight
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- 17w
it started when i simply worried about my partner losing feelings because she was being a bit distant and so i obviously spiraled and started thinking “oh yeah she has to be losing feelings of some sort” she was only being distant because she was preparing for her confirmation party (this is important) and me and my friend hung out the same day and ended up walking to her house to say hello to her as a joke. but i was already way too deep in my spiral. right after that interaction with her, she literally reassured me right then and there that i was “cute” and that “she really likes me” but i was so caught up in the idea that shes losing feelings for me that i couldnt accept the reassurance and kept having intrusive thoughts that shes lying to me and that she doesnt mean it. but whatever, i wasnt THAT worried because her confirmation is coming up and she wouldnt lose feelings for me before something like that right? a couple days pass by and im at her confirmation party, shes being a little distant but only because shes tired (evidently too) and so i was still in a spiral. but then i met her family, and her mom let me have her number (in case i wanna schedule something with my gf) and that sparked a whole episode. i talked to her mom a couple times and started worrying about if what it would be like it i left my gf and how it would affect me and her family and quickly a thought followed up with all her physical imperfections and how much i dont like specific ones. and then another one came up. i saw one photo pf my partner and swore it looked like someone in my math class who isnt attractive. i managed to get rid of that thought the first time, and had to deal with the imperfections idea thing for a whole month. recently tho, the unattractive girl from my math class is popping up in my head again. i cannot get it out of my head, any advice? what is this phenomenon and also im pretty sure im the only person who has dealt with all of these thoughts.
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