worried i did this thing

so i’m constantly worried of touching people l, grazing up or bumping into the them and the sort. sometimes when i try not to i like twitch, and it feels like i moved intentionally. i’m worried i bumped someone underage at a movie theater and that it was a case where it like felt intentional. i have pocd and i remember something involving some people at a movie theater a few days ago bothered me. at the time i told myself that since it’s a rated r movie you need to be 17 to go in, and i forgot all about it but now remembered that no one really enforces that. now 17 is still young so i doubt i’d have forget anything too drastic that could have happened but it’s still a possibility.

Username: MintyMLPMintyMLP

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Real event OCD is the worst! It's good to keep in mind that our memories aren't reliable and like @BigGip09 said, they become distorted especially when you replay events over and over. You attach feelings to the memory and distort it every time you replay it. It's best to think of anxiety and guilt like a "check engine" light in a car. You pull over and assess: do I need to change what I'm doing right now? (apologize, change behavior, etc). By need, I mean actually NEED, not OCD saying "you might feel relief if you do X". If you don't need to change anything, get back on the road.

Username: donnocddonnocd

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

I understand this theme.. I've struggled with it as well...this OCD really is difficult for all of us.. I try not to engage with the thoughts or rationalize them at all... Sometimes it works other days it's more of a struggle but i just have to stop engaging in my OCD thoughts And that what if thing :( I catch it very late sometimes But when I do i try to get back to the present as quickly as possible and not answer ocd questions... Did I hit someone by accident etc etc.. I keep reminding myself that my reaction fuels or diminishes my OCD so i try not to engage as that fuels my OCD :(

Username: mitzmitz

Date posted: 1y ago

thank you all for the replies. i am trying to start off the new year the right way and this was interfering. i just remember something going wrong if x person was young, but that doesn’t mean it is, so again thank you all

Username: BigGyro09BigGyro09

Date posted: 1y ago

Best thing you can do is apply the maybe maybe not formula and to not fight the thoughts on this. Plus, you also say 17 is young, which it is. You're a lot different than what you were like at the age. I know I was

Username: mitzmitz

Date posted: 1y ago

@BigGip09 i wasn’t 17 when it happened. i remember something giving me comfort that the youngest some could have been was 17, but now realizing that it isn’t necessarily true. i mentioned 17 being young because i probably would have cared more if it was accidentally touching and not just an intrusive thought

Username: BigGyro09BigGyro09

Date posted: 1y ago

@mitz Sorry I misread it. That sounds like another scenario but it still sounds like someone OCD is latching onto only because you don't want that to be the case and that's someone that personally bothers you I would say. Trying to figure out distorts it more and it doesn't really lead to anything. This is much harder than other themes because this is real event. I'm very bothered with real event intrusive thoughts and these are the ones that last. Still, I try to tell myself that it's in the past and I should be in the present. Sorry this is bothering you. I hope you still managed to have a good day

Username: m___

Date posted: 1y ago

Pocd? Ruminating

Yesterday I was watching a show and I thought the boy was cute and just randomly texted my cousins cuz we were watching the same show. I’m 23, & at first glance I barely paid attention but I thought he was at least 21, but my cousins replied with “he looks 18 you pervert” or “it’s looking bad for you”. I started freaking out immediately checked to his face properly again and he did look younger, & I felt so disgusted with myself. I felt terrible, instantly regretted everything & didn’t know what to do. I’ve been anxious since last night barely been able to sleep cuz I just complimented someone who is younger than me. My mind is now like ruminating that I’m a pedophile or pervert for thinking that. I hate this because I honestly wasn’t thinking of it in that type of sense like I would date him or something, I was not aware. I would’ve forgot about that moment after. I needed to get it off my chest cuz I have been feeling exhausted & terrible.

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Username: anotherocd123

Date posted: 1y ago

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Yesterday I was helping a child change and I was touching their skin for some reason (helping them pull up their pants or something) and then I was like “wow their skin is so soft and then I had a bad thought and then backed away. I’m really scared I am I p*do pile and did I touch them inappropriately?? I don’t want that answer to be yes or else I’m gonna throw up. I feel like I should’ve backed away when I was touching their skin soft but it felt like I was in slow motion. I’m so scared.

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Username: m1ch3ll3

Date posted: 1y ago

Constantly worried abt sth

Ive been worried abt having said sth weird to a child all day now. Like I keep thinking abt when I was talking to this one person on fortnite that was 10. I keep being scared to have asked sth weird or even made a sexual joke. I mean that would be weird as fuck. I mean I can remember that we were just talking normally and everything but just now I remembered I once said sth and he was like „what“ and I was like „nvm“. I can’t remember what i had said before that. Maybe he also didn’t understand me because I keep talking pretty much nonsense and often don’t get understood by other people bc I talk very quietly. But I’m scared that I’d said sth weird. And now I keep trying to figure it out. I mean it would’ve been weird to make a sexual Jon in front of a 10 yr old, right? I don’t want to be weird and make children uncomfortable in any way :( and I mean at that time I’d already had pocd but what if I hadn’t realised that at that time it was wrong what I’d said to him? Did I just forget about it? And just now I’d got the thought „what if you wanted to say sth weird to him which he thought was weird and he reacted that way?“ I’m being eaten up by this I don’t want to groom minors

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