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Is it normal that everything gets worse when something that cause you anxiety is coming. My school is starting on few days and my thoughts are so much worse.
Is it normal that everything gets worse when something that cause you anxiety is coming. My school is starting on few days and my thoughts are so much worse.
Yep. Mine was worse today because I was going to go on a plane and I’m a nervous flyer. Your not alone. It definitely spikes when your going through something stressful
@Dothewalkoflife. Yes! I’ve just gone through a rough break up with my ex boyfriend which has caused so many groinal response and extremely bad hocd it’s so challenging especially because I have rocd and I keep thinking I was never attracted to him which is scary
@summer.rose I’ve had this exact thing. My hocd re’started’ after my breakup and it made me convinced I didn’t actually love him. But I know I absolutely did at the time
This is very normal. Your external factors that cause you stress can highten your ocd
I got this 13 years old. Now I am fifteen. I haven't got diagnosed but therapist has told me that this sounds hocd and ocd. I take meds and it has helped. My panick attacks stopped and my anxiety is better but I am still struggeling everyday. My ocd gets worse when I go to school. I just went today back to school after christmas holiday and my anxiety is so much worse. My biggest triggers are past proofs, groinal responses and my looks. I also have tocd thoughts and false memories.
@Finnishgirl I’m very similar to you. I have past proof that haunts me all the time. I get it.
@Dothewalkoflife. What did you do?
@Finnishgirl I hate talking about it because it makes me feel sick. But when I was 8/9 I practiced kissing and touching with 2 other girls that were almost double my age. Loads of times. And and that age I enjoyed it (that was hard to say) And I also used to watch films with naked women in a lot because I enjoyed that too at the ages 8-10 I have loadsss of false memories of crushes. Like when I admired my bothered girlfriend because she was so pretty I now feel like what if I was in love with her. Or the friends I practice kissing with. Because it made me have butterflies or because I enjoyed it. (Sorry if I rambled. I hate talking about this. But I want to try and help you)
@Dothewalkoflife. I know its hard, I am so sorry that you are dealing with this. I hate being on tiktok because there is always lesbians who tell how they googled girls kissing or something like that and that made they realize that they were gay. I just wanna die when I hear that because I did it.
Hey. I saw a post of yours a little while ago but I can’t find it now to comment. It was about things you did when you was younger that you believed are proof. I just wanted to reach out because I have done things VERY similar quite a few times and I wanted to let you know that you are not alone. At all. I’m also struggling with things from my past as ‘proof’ and I’m scared too. I wish I could find your post because I related a lot but didn’t manage to comment. I just wanted to ask if prehaps you have been diagnosed at all?
Hi!! Thank you for writing me. I am on meds but not diagnosed yet. What about you? What is your story?
@Finnishgirl Well this all started for me at like 14. Now I’m 16 almost 17. I’ve been diagnosed (I think. My psychiatrist told me it sounds like I have the signs of ocd and I’m obsessive) although I never mentioned my theme which makes me think I don’t have hocd. I’m supposed to take meds but I’m too scared of the outcome. What’s your story ?
So recently my mind is trying to make me feel like I accept the thoughts, like I'm ok with for example loving X person. After I get a thought like that and I realize it I get anxious and, like right now, I cry for 1 hour+ on the bathroom floor. I feel exhausted and I want to know if I'm the only one having this.
I'm at my college and don't feel like being here. I didn't even want to come here. I woke up with anxiety bc i feel like i need to solve this. I had a bad stomach ache when i arrived to school and still havent even eaten breakfast yet bc i feel like i have to solve this. Im just so worried bc i have harm thoughts daily. If i could i would remove this! I dont want to think anymore. Its just, how do I know i dont have real urges when I'm feeling a negative emotion like anger or disappointment or annoyance? Im worried EVERY time i feel a negative emotion. Yesterday I was playing video games with my neice (we are close in age range) and she made us lose. She started blaming me and I guess i felt a little annoyed, it really wasnt my fault (dumb mini argument it was more playful since we started laughing but it was a bit annoying). Anyway i got a harm thought while feeling annoyed of me getting off the couch and lunging at her to attack. I immediately look at my bodily reaction and I tense up to stay as still as possible. My stomach was hurting and i wanted to leave as fast as possible. I stood up and turned off the game and said i was tired while making sure to stay back from her (and i had my hands away and stiff) but i felt so uneasy. I laid I bed and felt sad and heavy. And i kept getting thoughts that said "íts only a matter of time before you can't take it anymore". I started to reassurance seek using ai to ask if i was about to or if they are real urges or thoughts i mean until i eventually fell asleep in the middle of the compulsion. Im just so worried, what if I act out impulsevly one day? I dont want to! But what if when feeling a negative emotion, i suddenly dont care and do something? I really dont want to! I dont even want to feel negative emotions anymore since they trigger the thoughts and I dont want to think about any of that. As a result i tend to avoid my family as much as possible bc they are annoying sometimes. I just wish i was all alone sometimes so i wont get any more thoughts and so everyone can be safe. I usually just stay in bed under my blankets all day long to avoid my family and pets. I am constantly uncomfortable. I miss when i would never think any of this. Living life has become very scary for me now. 😞
I started medication and therapy I statted medication approximately two months ago and I m getting worse . I just can t focus on studying I forgot what I did and this didnt happen before my brain didnt stop even in my sleep I just feel exhausted I lost my belief to recover and I dont know what to do I just feel like I shouldnt have statted take medication because It just helo my depression a little but on contrary It makes my anciety much worse and totally I feel much worse I just dont know what to do my life is miserable I feel like no one could help me anymore If you read this could you response me? I just feel like no pne really gets me and my religious ocd hits me very badly
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