Can’t stop the thoughts

I work with young kids and I can’t stop thinking the most disgusting things about them. Obviously my job involves touching them and hugging them and having close contact with them via diaper changing, etc. I can’t go more than a couple minutes without an intrusive sexual thought or thinking that something I’ve done was sexual in nature. Does anybody else have POCD and work with kids or have young kids? What the hell do you do with the constant triggers? It feels like a battle in my head and for the first time in a long time in my mental health journey I’m having suicidal thoughts.

Username: EFF_OCDEFF_OCD

Date posted: 1y ago

On this app I see so many people with POCD. It seems to be one of the most common things. My themes switch and I had this one like 8 years ago and it’s been put to rest. I think the reason is bc eventually nothing happened (obviously bc we HATE our thoughts, it isn’t who we are) and I just accepted that horrible intrusive thoughts happen to everyone. It’s like this theme went away on it’s own bc I desensitized myself to it in a way. This too shall pass. As hard as it is, sit with it and just keep living your life. It does get better.

Username: tintin

Date posted: 1y ago

@Itsheathersocd Thank you. I had this theme before and it passed but it came back with a passion and now I can’t get rid of it.

Username: EFF_OCDEFF_OCD

Date posted: 1y ago

@tin Sometimes themes def love to come back. It’s so annoying!

Username: HuntersvillelionHuntersville...

Date posted: 1y ago

I have the same intrusive thoughts and triggers, one thing I've been able to do is give as little reaction as possible to these thoughts. I'm really sorry you're struggling with such an upsetting theme I too deal with it everyday. It does get better though

Username: tintin

Date posted: 1y ago

@Huntersvillelion Thank you ❤️

Username: worrier 24worrier 24

Date posted: 1y ago

I started getting the intrusive thoughts while working on a nursery and had to leave bc of my mental health and will never work in one ever again

Username: worrier 24worrier 24

Date posted: 1y ago

@em24# *in

Username: tintin

Date posted: 1y ago

@em24# It’s so hard, it’s constant triggers and rumination. I have been driven suicidal over this and I worry that if I don’t get some relief I don’t know what I might do. I am hurting so badly over it.

Username: worrier 24worrier 24

Date posted: 1y ago

@tin I have felt the same currently do as having biggest relapse ever after 8 months of managing fine. it will get better have you thought about getting help?

Username: tintin

Date posted: 1y ago

@em24# I can’t afford it right now so I’m relying on trying to do ERP on my own and hanging out in these support spaces.

Username: worrier 24worrier 24

Date posted: 1y ago

I hope you can learn to accept the thoughts so they’re not as scary I wouldn’t wish this on anyone it’s not fair our brains are like this. Feels like it’s ruined my life at times but other times I feel like I have s good life it’s always in back of my head though and I can feel guilty but at the end of the days thoughts are not facts you’re okay and you’re a good person! We get upsetting thoughts bc we’re scared if others getting hurt ocd likes to lie to us to make us think we’re bad for getting these thoughts I know it’s can be tough

Username: tintin

Date posted: 1y ago

@em24# Thanks for replying, it was nice to read your message. ❤️ It feels like my life is ruined too, I can’t stop ruminating

Username: bellarose12

Date posted: 5y ago

POCD Trigger: I really hate this disorder and I don’t know how much longer I can do this for. I work at a daycare and I’m constantly bombarded with these thoughts that I have hurt a child or even molested them. It is the worst feeling and part of me knows I’d never do that but my OCD really does take over my life. Today, for instance, I was rocking on of the children and I rocked them for two seconds by accident and it told me I molested them. And when I when to pick them up to put them in the play area my hand accidente touched the front of their leg and it told me again I had hurt them, a similar thing happened with another child today where I was feeding them and I accidentally rocked them and I was now a molester. It really is the hardest disorder to deal with. And I hate how it attacked my occupation, I love working with kids and child psychology and everything, but my ocd is really affecting everything.

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Username: zg23

Date posted: 5y ago

Need some advice here as I feel like such a sick twisted person..I feel like I may have sexual intrusive thoughts ocd but sometimes I think it’s just me and my twisted brain- intrusive thoughts about my family members has turned into pedophilia ocd and what makes it worse is that I work with children. Lately I’ve been seeing sexual intrusive images of me sexually abusing young children normally male, and I am obviously distressed by them and I would never act on that but it makes me feel like I would actually do that cause of the feeling I would get and it’s all so confusing and scary cause I would never do that to a child. Please someone help that has maybe been through a similar experience?

Username: Kasey2001

Date posted: 2y ago

I have severe OCD and I experience all different types of intrusive thoughts and compulsions I fucking hate it! But one thing I struggle with the most is POCD! It makes me violently sick and disturbed but I know it’s not me and I know it’s not true but then why do I feel so disgusting? I have two children, one 5 and the other is 1, I don’t want to change my daughters nappys I don’t want to get her dressed (of course I do because I don’t have a choice) but it triggers me so bad and gets me in a state, I don’t know how to get over this I’ve had this certain thought for over six weeks and I can’t do it anymore, I’m so distressed they deserve better, why can’t I just be a normal person, I’ve actually thought about giving them up over these thoughts it’s breaking me and it’s breaking my heart, I actually can’t try beat this anymore.

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