Does anyone else get triggered by some of the things people say about accepting and recovering. Idk Like sometimes I feel like my thoughts are so awful how could i ever come to accept that and let it roam free in my brain. I think that makes my fear worse especially when it comes to magical thinking :(
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I heard a quote about how people talk about Acceptance as if it means something positive, like that acceptance is supposed to be bring immediate relief. But acceptance is painful. I think of acceptance like growing pains. It is beautiful and good to grow, but growing pains are, well, PAINFUL! but they’re a necessity to growing. Acceptance is necessary for healing, but that doesn’t mean “roaming free” in your brain isn’t painful and difficult.
I used to in the beginning but not anymore because I personally know it’s true.
Yup. Acceptance seems easy to people whose brains are made for easy acceptance. We aren’t. Us saying “maybe” is as bad as us saying “yes, we are our worst fears”. It’s just something we have to train ourselves to do. I hope things get better ❤️
@TPD thank you💕 same to you!
I feel you and I'm sorry you're living this. OCD sucks and it's egodystonic, so it can make us feeling like we weren't us, with horrible thoughts and feelings. We know they aren't ours, because we feel destroyed by them, but the doubt about them is terrible to have. To accept your thoughts doesn't mean that you have to consider them ok or valid, it's just thinking that they aren't yours, they're created only by your fear, not by your true mind. So, stay strong, do therapy and let your thoughts have no power. They're not yourself, they're just the result of your worst fears. They don't count, because OCD lies to you. Stay strong, I'm with you in this battle. Therapy, stop compulsions and faith in yourself! ❤️
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This might contain triggering content, but I'm also wondering if others have dealt with this similar thought, and if so, how to deal with it? Overall, I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm able to eat again, which I hadn't been able to do because of how much anxiety I'd been experiencing. I'm spending time around loved ones and not just rotting in my room, and I've been able to wake up without immediately being bombarded by intrusive thoughts. When things first got really bad, I'd wake my mom up every night for reassurance, but I haven't done that in a while either. I'm really proud of myself, but there's still this nagging thought in my mind... While looking through others posts on here, hoping to find advice that'd fit my situation, I ended up making things worse. Someone mentioned how they had a fear that they'd purposely search for illegal content (related to POCD). I panicked, and "what ifs" flooded my thoughts. "What if the intrusive thoughts affect who I am as a person, and I do that?" I'm terrified that I'll search for those things, which I know means I wouldn't do it. But then, another person on here said they'd actually looked for those things, and that freaked me out even more. Does that mean it's possible for that to happen to me? I don't want to do that, but I keep having intrusive thoughts surrounding it. I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm just... stuck. I don't know what to do. I've spoken with other people who have the same fears, but how do I manage this? It's not something I've even thought about before seeing those posts. I've been practicing accepting the uncertainty, but I'm really struggling with this one. I hate this. This morning, I woke up, and the intrusive thoughts were back. It's just disheartening.
I struggle so bad with intrusive thoughts. They can be so bad that I'll cry because I KNOW that's not how I feel or want to do. (Too embarrassed to say what they're about) I'll constantly try to figure out why I have them, and constantly figure out what they mean, causing me to constantly circle around and around. I had to get on anxeity meds, which helped a little but the thoughts still happen. How do you help yourself with this? How do you know that you're just not some physcopath? 😅
so I need to get back into ERP, but it’s so hard to manage these thoughts and learn to deal with them. like I swear my mind has to make everything about it. Like every time I clean my room, my mind’s like yup make sure it’s clean so when your parents find you, or something so stupid like if I get a headache, my mind convinces me that I like the pain and that that’s why I get my thoughts because I actually want to do it. It’s so exhausting. Because I know I would never want to take my life and I treasure my life so why does it do it to me? It’s hard to comprehend the fact of these thoughts too because I don’t know many people with this exact theme. It’s such a scary feeling. And I’m constantly questioning whether I have actual depression or if it’s just my OCD. Yes I have been diagnosed with suicidal OCD, but my mind still tries to convince me otherwise. I just don’t know how to let these just sit and pass without panicking.
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