- Username
- myheal06
- Date posted
- 60d ago
- Harm OCD
- Existential OCD
- Suicidal OCD
any advice?
i’ve dealt with anxiety my whole life, as well as pretty mild ocd. but to be honest i genuinely thought ocd manifested as something completely different than what i’ve been feeling the past week. about a month ago i lost my grandpa and exactly one week ago i lost my uncle. ever since loosing my uncle i have felt extremely distant from reality and my family. i have been experiencing horrible intrusive thoughts about something horrible happing to them. Or my thoughts telling me that it would be my fault or me causing the hard. but i also am absolutely terrified to loose them. i can’t seem to find any peace of mind. and if i manage to find peace it is quickly replaced with another disturbing thought or image. i know that i would never harm my family or anyone else but the thought alone in killing me😞