I accidentally brought up a past thought.

When I’m taking showers, I tend to get stuck in my head and remember past thoughts. “Remember when you made the call to make that assessment and you talked to them how you saw this one person naked and it scared you?” Then the images came back. I tried pushing them out saying, “No, no, get out. No, no, why did I remember that?! You let that go!” Luckily, the images are disappearing now, but I felt so awful for doing that. Why did I even think back to that? I’m not attracted to that stuff at all, and now I can’t forgive myself for even remembering. Now I’m constantly thinking, “That wasn’t intrusive. YOU brought that memory back up.”