does this sound like ROCD

Hello. So for the past month and a half i’d say, i have been feeling really depressed and anxious especially about my relationship. Before this started me and my boyfriend were fighting a lot but i still looked at him like the world stopped spinning. One night after an argument, me and him were kinda just sitting around and i got this feeling of “do i have feelings for him anymore” ever since that night i haven’t been able to completely shake this feeling. I still enjoy his company and love when he texts me and i love cuddling and all that stuff. I have realized more things/toxic traits i had to work on with this feeling of anxiety which is a good outcome. I have thought about breaks or breaking up but deep down i felt like that wouldn’t solve anything. I could be having a great time and think only positive thoughts about life and my relationship and then all of the sudden think “do i like him” “is this real or fake love” “is being single better” but in reality i want to be with him and see myself with him even though lately i feel like it’s hard to see the future ever since that night. I keep trying to get a therapist but the wait lists are extremely long. I just really need some advice or someone tell me how to fix this and how to become me again because it’s really starting to take over my life and i feel like a totally different person.