i completed my 15 minute free call and got scheduled with a therapist next week. i’m so afraid i won’t be able to hold out until then, that my thoughts will continue eating away at me and something bad will occur. i don’t know how long i can take it without having someone to talk to or give me a diagnosis. i’m afraid to tell my parents or close cousin about this topic, so i really have no one right now. thoughts?
First thing I want to say is that you are not crazy… nor are you alone in this issue! When I first developed my ocd symptoms I got so scared I wouldn’t be able to hold out until help arrived. But I assure you, it is all the OCD nothing in there fundamentally is you. The best thing to help that I would recommend telling your parents or cousin. Not all battles are meant to be fought alone. For me telling my mom felt like a reliever because believe it or not everyone in there lifetime experiences intrusive thought! Even the most sane and rational people have thoughts like this too. I can tell by the way you wrote this that you seem in distress so take a deep breath and try not to fight it. You know the saying ignorance is bliss? That applies to ocd just let it run its course and everything will be ok. Promise me to try to do the thing I recommended. Right now all that you need is love and support. You have my heart. Much love stay safe!💕
@✝️ I really think I’ll crush my relationship with them by expressing these feelings. I literally only have them left. I lost my dad side of the family after coming out, and it’s haunting me that this will be what makes me lose the other support. I made terrible mistakes as a kid, and just one the other day when I let a innocent video cause sensations. I’m so stuck in my head and disgusted
@Anonymous I know myself just how difficult that is, but the best thing for you is to express your feelings. Express to them that this doesn’t mean anything about who you are it’s just a struggle you can’t find alone. And if they love you in the way you described they will love throughout this whole journey. I love you, stay safe and try to tell them for me ok?
Ur all good man. Just take a breath and relax, maybe do something you enjoy :). Or talk to me about whats on your mind
@Anonymous i’ve tried watching one of my new favorite shows and even gaming, the thoughts overtook my mind from both. i’m scared man
it’s usually just thoughts , I’ve struggled with ocd for so so long. you’re gonna be good , just have faith and you’ll get help after your therapy session
Don't be upset at yourself. I don't fully understand losing many people in my life, but just remember: You need to be here for them. I can tell from the words you are saying that they mean a great deal to you, and that is exactly what ocd targets. You've got this, I wish only the best for you💯
@Faded_Citadel777 Thank you 🙏🏼 I know ultimately it’s my decision, but do you recommend telling loved ones about the POCD side of the disorder before treatment even if there may be disturbances?
@Anonymous Do you have another appointment? If you trust your therapist, it may be useful to mention these people to them, they will know more about the right way to bring the discussion to your relatives. Other then that, it is good you have discussed it, made it a lot easier in my case.
As some of you might very seen from my (spam) posts about my situation I'm not diagnosed with ocd but I'm seeing a local counselor. I'm terribly scared of being secretly in love with someone else or being attracted to someone else outside my relationship, in this case S (if you want a more detailed version u can see my other posts). Long story short: The psychologist confirmed my fear and told me not to think about the thoughts until the next appointment and live in the present ( if it was that simple I would've done it already). Safe to say it sent me and still sending me into a big spiral where I had this big panick attack because I feel the world shattered and my fear is true and then I was just faking everything and not accepting it and it's making me fee so bad as I type this. I had a big panick attack while going back home and had to sit on the sidewalk because I couldnt breathe and was about to throw up. I don't know what to do and if someone has advice I'd be glad to listen.
my therapist isnt avaible for a this week and this weeks been hell, cant focus, i keep getting stuck in my thoughts, if i predict something will happen and it doesnt, my brain gets stuck on what if it did and then my obession keeps going, i keep trying to not pay attention or let go of my thoughts but feels like im in a trance when the thoughts come up and feels hard to snap out of it. also since my ocd is to the point of disability (despite social security keeps denying me) i cant go out much and my fears have been getting more and more dehabilitating and i dont know how to properly fix it, i dont know the right way to respond to these thoughts, i dont know how to let go, its just been super rough and demoralizing...
It's going to be a year since I started the worst POCD episode of my life. I got diagnosed almost a year ago too, but the frequency of our sessions wasn't ideal and also I was in a very bad state (24/7 anxious and couldn't leave my bed) so I started taking medication a few months ago. But when I started with the meds my therapist kind of ghosted me? She said she's going to be very busy until May this year. That's why I booked an appointment with a new therapist my psychiatrist recommended. But I am deeply scared the moment I tell her everything she's going to send the police to my house and my life is going to end. Please help! How do I calm down? Can that actually happen?
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