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- 2y
So sad :( and crying
Is it common to cry a lot because compulsions don’t work anymore and it seems like nothing is going to work to calm the thoughts?
Is it common to cry a lot because compulsions don’t work anymore and it seems like nothing is going to work to calm the thoughts?
I feel this too
When I first was experiencing OCD I felt so much fear and I felt so out of control and overwhelmed. Eventually after so much crying I felt numb this caused much fear I thought this meant I was opening up to the idea. But in all reality it’s the opposite. If your compulsions aren’t working anymore and you feel not as much fear that may be you healing. But if you still have fear and you can’t cry it’s probably because your experience numbness. This doesn’t mean you’ll do what your thinking, it just means your brain has had enough and needs a break! Much love!
Yes, though you also need to realize that doing compulsions will never work or help you in the long run. You’d old compulsions don’t work anymore because OCD is out of control and wants you to do more, and more, and more.
eventually, your mind is so used to the same kind of compulsions so it’s no longer satisfying or calming you down. which when you do compulsions, your basically pushing the problem away which builds up to make it worse when you don’t do compulsions like you used to. sitting in the thought, closing your eyes, breathing through the pain, and remembering it’s just a thought and this is just ocd. i am uncomfortable because of the uncertainty of this thought. many people struggle with this and it is scary. you’ll get through it i promise. hope this helps :)
ive been feeling like this recently too
At this point I think I’m just tired. Took me a massive amount of strength to even type this. I’ve never had it this bad with anxiety depression and OCD. Firstly, how do you guys handle the trauma that comes with OCD. I recently realized Ive traumatized by own mind. I think this contributes to depression. Also, the thoughts frequency have gotten so high. It just literally jams its self in my brain. Before, I had some sort of control (at least a grip) but this days it’s so hard to try to get a grip. The unwanted feelings too? Omg, reactions that I literally can’t stand plagues me. My mind turns almost everything sexual. It’s crazy 🙃 Then the anxietyyyyyy! Wheew. I’m like a walking anxiety attack, my heart is always beating fast and it’s so painful. Working is so hard because I can’t get a grip, I feel so broken and I don’t think anyone can relate to this. I don’t know what I can do to help. Then the pressure in my head (that causes headache sometimes), sometimes I genuinely think I have a tumor! I’m pregnant so that makes it sadder, makes me wonder what kind of mother this beautiful soul is coming out here to meet. I don’t want to be a sad mother, and I cry more when I realize my child can feel what I feel rn in my belly😔. Another thing, the moment I don’t wanna do something, doesn’t even have to be anything bad. That’s when it feels my mind wants to force me to do it. It’s a whole lot and I’m just holding on to Jesus to help me out. At least he’s here so that’s comforting.
i don’t want to do my compulsions. I feel like if I don’t somebody will get hurt, sick or die. It’s a very scary thought to feel like if I don’t do my compulsions it will be my fault even though it isn’t & nor will it happen. I know it’s magical thinking & my thoughts are not true nor will they come true. it’s just im so tired of doing these compulsions. im so tired of feeling like I can stop something bad happening if I don’t step on this or touch this 4 times. it even got me believing that if I do something I want to do & love, something bad will happen. I just want to be able to live & feel like I use to. I hate ocd. how can I calm this down so I can be able to navigate in my own life?
Please help. I have felt so off/wrong all day. I constantly worry that the “bad guy” is going to get me. I have awful thoughts and I constantly want God to know that I don’t mean these thoughts. I am at a point in my therapy where I need to choose to use my ERP but it feels too scary. I then do compulsions, which makes the OCD worse, which makes me want to use ERP less. And the cycle goes on. I am currently sitting in my car crying because I feel so lost and exhausted. I’m not supposed to figure out my thoughts, but today I just went into a spiral of sadness and depression, thinking that I will always feel like this. When my thoughts got really bad at the end of the day, I tried to use ERP even though I was shaking and not believing my responses and I ended up feeling like I missed something and that I gave into the “bad guy.” I have no one to talk when I’m not doing therapy twice a week. I am alone and have no one to talk to when I am like this… please help
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