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- 2y ago
So sad :( and crying
Is it common to cry a lot because compulsions don’t work anymore and it seems like nothing is going to work to calm the thoughts?
Is it common to cry a lot because compulsions don’t work anymore and it seems like nothing is going to work to calm the thoughts?
I feel this too
When I first was experiencing OCD I felt so much fear and I felt so out of control and overwhelmed. Eventually after so much crying I felt numb this caused much fear I thought this meant I was opening up to the idea. But in all reality it’s the opposite. If your compulsions aren’t working anymore and you feel not as much fear that may be you healing. But if you still have fear and you can’t cry it’s probably because your experience numbness. This doesn’t mean you’ll do what your thinking, it just means your brain has had enough and needs a break! Much love!
Yes, though you also need to realize that doing compulsions will never work or help you in the long run. You’d old compulsions don’t work anymore because OCD is out of control and wants you to do more, and more, and more.
eventually, your mind is so used to the same kind of compulsions so it’s no longer satisfying or calming you down. which when you do compulsions, your basically pushing the problem away which builds up to make it worse when you don’t do compulsions like you used to. sitting in the thought, closing your eyes, breathing through the pain, and remembering it’s just a thought and this is just ocd. i am uncomfortable because of the uncertainty of this thought. many people struggle with this and it is scary. you’ll get through it i promise. hope this helps :)
ive been feeling like this recently too
Feel guilty for not giving into compulsions like rumination and confessing? I feel guilt for having an intrusive thought, trying to shrug it off or just giving it a few seconds of thought and moving along. This sounds like improvement but I still struggle with the anxiety and the guilt. The shame. I’ll be okay and then I’ll remember I have OCD and my stomach will drop and I just want to curl up and cry.
Advice needed please: Has anybody ever been in a situation where something traumatic or heartbreaking was happening in their life and struggled with rumination? I know there is like a normal amount that you should process something and cry it out but I don’t know that it is conducive to anything to do that on and off for hours? Wouldn’t it at a certain point be considered unhelpful rumination? And if so how does one stop? Because I’m going through something so hurtful and confusing that I don’t know how to stop thinking about it and the usual distractions don’t work for very long. And idk how important this is but it just happened today so it’s very fresh which makes it even harder to not think about and “figure out” why x, y, z happened. Goodness, I’m sorry if I’m weird or a baby
Dose anyone else experience that your OCD calms down and goes to the back of your mind during- feels almost safe and unaware of it but as soon as it's over and youve calmed down all the intrusive thoughts come rushing back 10x worse? I've had really awful panic attacks because of it the past two nights and it's exhausting I haven't been with another person in over a year because of how bad it was after and not being able to explain it properly to partners "no I'm not crying because of you" "no you didn't do anything wrong" I feel insane- like I'll never be able to have a normal functioning sexual time alone or with others do to it the compulsions that come with it are exhausting it's like the need to cleanse myself of filth like I'm disgusting and horrible until there's no traces I did anything in the first place I'm just so tired dose anyone have any tips of how to work through this- or at least be able to enjoy myself without crying afterwords? I have no idea what subtype this would even entail? I'm going to go with contamination I guess ?
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