So sad :( and crying
Is it common to cry a lot because compulsions don’t work anymore and it seems like nothing is going to work to calm the thoughts?
I feel this too
When I first was experiencing OCD I felt so much fear and I felt so out of control and overwhelmed. Eventually after so much crying I felt numb this caused much fear I thought this meant I was opening up to the idea. But in all reality it’s the opposite. If your compulsions aren’t working anymore and you feel not as much fear that may be you healing. But if you still have fear and you can’t cry it’s probably because your experience numbness. This doesn’t mean you’ll do what your thinking, it just means your brain has had enough and needs a break! Much love!
Yes, though you also need to realize that doing compulsions will never work or help you in the long run. You’d old compulsions don’t work anymore because OCD is out of control and wants you to do more, and more, and more.
eventually, your mind is so used to the same kind of compulsions so it’s no longer satisfying or calming you down. which when you do compulsions, your basically pushing the problem away which builds up to make it worse when you don’t do compulsions like you used to. sitting in the thought, closing your eyes, breathing through the pain, and remembering it’s just a thought and this is just ocd. i am uncomfortable because of the uncertainty of this thought. many people struggle with this and it is scary. you’ll get through it i promise. hope this helps :)
ive been feeling like this recently too
I’m having a meltdown! Help! I have been reducing my reassurance lately. I went from 250 to now like 20 times. Huge jump in last month. But I feel absolutely awful still because it’s ERP and it gets worse before you get better. I’m so on edge so the slightest things trigger me. I’ve been having a horrible meltdown for an hour screaming at top of my lungs. I just want ERP TO Work!!! I’m putting in so much effort. I believe I’m getting closer but these meltdowns are horrible. Hopefully it’s a good sign that erp is working because the ocd is mad. Anyone else experience this in ERP? It’s such a huge change and I want my life back so bad! During this meltdown, my ocd has told me that I’m never going to get better and I’m scared.
I am working on overcoming one of my themes, and one of the things I have to tell myself is that no matter what I do (compulsions, etc) I can’t stop something bad from happening to me. I almost feel like I am grieving the loss of “control” / “safety” that my OCD has falsely provided me with all this time.
I’m laying I bed crying my eyes out don’t really know why, I’m just so so tired of overthinking 24/7. I think it’s got to a point where it’s overwhelming and I feel alone. I feel like people around me don’t understand, I mean they try, but they don’t really understand… I’ve had ocd since I was very young and I’m 26 now and trying to deal with it, it’s getting worse day after day. I don’t know what to do anymore I’m just writing what I’m thinking right now, sorry about that, I think it’s actually calming me down I have like thoughts about my relationship, I want everything to be absolutely perfect all the time, my boyfriend knows about my ocd but doesn’t understand I don’t like to talk about it to him because I’m scared it will push him away He’s going to come home soon and being like « hi I’m crying I don’t know why » I don’t want him to think that I’m just negative
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