My hocd and trans ocd are gone I think but now I have religious ocd

When I was less then 9 years old i wasn't that educated on Christianity and I thought that God was the devil and I'm scared thats blasphemy against the holy spirit

???WHO CARES! YOU SHOULD CELEBRATE! THE OTHER OCD IS GONE AND THOSE ARE THE WORST ONES, I’ve had religious ocd a few times, it usually took me a few days to get over that so you should be good. PARTAYY?

Yeah but I'm thinking about the unpardonable sin

That is not blasphemy. While it may be considered as one by someone who is fully aware, you were 9 and as you said you didn't know much about Christianity. Don't worry about it, my grandma always told me that God doesn't "punish" children and that he will always forgive if you regret something

That’s pretty common with OCD. It’s like ‘whack- a-mole’ once u get over one theme, it tends to change to another theme. I experience this a lot.

he understands

He’ll forgive you for everything except denying him

And that’s in the Bible

Ask him for forgiveness even though he’s already forgiven you. The Bible says once he forgives you he forgets you’ve done it, he doesn’t use it against you

I'm nauseous I just want it to go away

Here's the thing, I used to get very bad blasphemous intrusive thoughts before going to bed and I felt absolutely horrible about it but I know now it's ocd, and so do you. You feel bad about it now and that's enough, God has already forgiven you. Don't read bible, don't talk to a priest, don't go on the internet and search about this if it's a compulsion. It will only mess you up. Religion is complicated so don't listen to other people either

I'll be honest with you, I do believe in God but I don't believe in pastors /priests because they are humans capable of committing sin like everybody. I'm not that religious but I do believe and know God and as long as you regret whatever sin you may have done, you're good

baby girl, calm down

I may actually be beyond repentance I read verse Hebrew 10:26: When I was in 5th grade or so I was obsessed with touching doorknobs and counting everything around me and I went to Jesus to seek for help I prayed everynight and the ocd somehow faded I was so happy and faithful but I somehow stopped praying not because I stopped believing I don't know why and I'm terrified because I've been through some atheist/agnostic stages after I my obsession faded and questioning and I'm truly terrified that I may actually be beyond repentance.

Mary Magdalene didn’t give birth to jesus

There were two Mary’s

But I'm scared that maybe I was aware omg I'm so scared

But you were a child and God always forgives children. Plus it's probably your ocd playing tricks with you. I used to get a lot of intrusive thoughts about religion but understanding God has helped me disregard them better

As a child God understands that you don’t know what’s going on. He automatically forgives you.

Yeah but I said God was evil and the devil

The Bible says its unforgivable

where does it say that

Because I’ve never heard of that

Mark 3:28-29

but that’s not blasphemy U WERE 9!

you didn’t know what you were saying, Jesus meant that for people who meant what they said

I'm always swearting, anxious and wake up early

Yeah but what if I meant it

Honey, listen to me, you are O-K-A-Y God completely understands the situation, he. Wouldn’t send a 9 year old to hell for a “sin” that wasn’t completely understood

God wouldn’t hold that against you. See now you’re old enough to know that it’s wrong to say those things

How do I get over this

It's the the worst theme

you have to face your fears, you’re scared of God not forgiving you? Go talk to him

How do I know he forgave me and that I won't go to hell

Go talk to God and tell him the truth. “My OCD is telling me that you won’t forgive me for a mistake I made when I was young.”

Yeah I get it but how do I know he'll forgive me

I prayed yesterday night

You’ll know when he forgives you, you’ll feel it inside

And God doesn’t have a time limit of what days you can pray or how long you can pray, all he wants is for you to talk to him. Sometimes he gives us hard things in life just so we can pay more attention to him

Ok thankyou for helping it means alot

No problem, I hope you feel better and I hope you’ll get to talk to him. He’ll be waiting. Let us know how it goes❤️

Today I kept crying ALOT I feel empty I need Jesus I need him what he doesn't want me what if I'm really unforgivable

He is going to turn you away, he’d never do that. He feels sad when you think he doesn’t want you, go talk to him

“He *isnt*

But why am I certain I commited it I truly think I did

Because I called God a devil and evil I'm doomed

I can't sleep at night I'm alwaus panicking, sweating

baby girl, calm down, your thinking too much. TALK TO HIM. Despite you thinking you’re wrong

I can't I'm in tears rn

The Bible says its unforgivable

Jesus meant that for different people, STOP READING THAT. Don’t open it up again

How do I know

How can you be so sure

If your actual, ocdless self would say that today then yes it'd be a sin. But you said that as a 9 year girl who didn't know much about God. People get intrusive sexual thoughts about religion yet that's just a mental illness and God knows. God wants you to be okay

But I'm scared that I was actually aware when I was 9

Idk how do stop doubting I can't sleep at night

Even if you were, you regret it now and God has already forgiven you because children are "white souls"

I feel hopeless this doesn't feel like my other ocd themes I'm scared it's actually real

Yeah but it's "UNFORGIVABLE"

I don't wanna be 60 years old and still be terrified

So what do I do just sit with the anxiety and the feeling that I'm going to go to hell

Here's the thing you have blasphemous thoughts while you had ocd I'm not like that because a pastor said a person who commited the unpardonable sin may not even know it

Yes, it gets better trust me. I had religious /death related ocd and I know how distressing it is. But it's just right now

I get it I truly do but it's say in the Bible it's scripture

The bible also says being gay is a sin. But people are born and God creates us to be good poeple, why would he want gay people to go to hell. The bible is made of words, but words ≠ meanings. We can't limit ourselves to read the words

Yeah but being gay is forgivable atleast

You can remain celibate

stop reading, go hide your bible until you’re in a place where you don’t have to go to it for reassurance

we’re trying to help you but you keep questioning everything we say. So it is hard to get you calm

I really appreciate it guys

Sorry if I'm too annoying

it’s okay, shit happens, and if we were annoyed we would’ve stopped responding. We care and want to help you, come back when you need out help

Ok so I'm convinced I didn't blaspheme him because I didn't know the full gospel

YESSS! AFTER TWO DAYS WE DID IT

I think you deserve a shot. I’ll take one just for you cheers to that!

But it feels like God left me like he's tired of me it actually happens because when I was 12 years old i was obsessed with touching doorknobs and counted everything around me after I got down on my knees everyday its somehow went but after it went I stopped praying and went through an atheist/agnostic phase

It keeps hopping

yeah I feel you sometimes, even though I love Jesus sometimes I just don’t understand why he sits there and watches us suffer but...he’s never gonna leave us

But I keep feeling I committed the unpardonable sin because it's when we are exposed to God's light and reject it

I'm scared I've rejected it

I'm doomed right

Chou_tzuyu13 I'm terrified this isn't ocd and that I'm the human version of judas

you can’t be judas

he’s dead and you’re not for starters

As long as you believe Jesus died for your sins, came back from the dead, and is going to come back at the end of the world then You are a Christian and nothing else

You can undo being a Christian it sticks with you forever

But doesn't the verse fit me perfectly aren't I an apostate

I told you to stop reading that, you’re only making it worse for yourself. I can’t help you if you keep on reading it. The Bible is an amazing thing, but when OCD tries to make it a negative thing you need to leave it alone until you’re better

Omg this is out of control my ocd is convincing me that I blasphemed the holy spirit because when I was going through an atheist/agnostic phase and questioning I watched a debate and an atheist talked about how Mary madelagne was possesd by 7 demons and I have this thought what is Jesus was demonic but it wasn't my final conclusion I'm terrified

Yeah ikkkkk

The Virgin Mary had Jesus

I know

That's not what I mean

I meant while I watching a debate between an atheist and a Christian the atheist said something about demons and I was like what if Jesus is demonic