ROCD and Morality

Anyone else have this issue? Everytime my brain believes I have done something “morally wrong” (would make my boyfriend upset), i have this urge to confess and explain in every single little detail what I did “wrong”. I then feel a sense of relief, but then after confessing, my brain spirals and wishes I would have said things differently. I them feel intense guilt because I feel like I lied to him, and that he still doesn’t know the real truth about what I did…It never ends because I always just keep spiraling, it feels like I can never truly be 100% content with whatever I tell him. I should add, I never intentionally lie to him but my brain keeps telling me that I keep lying and deceiving him. Any advice??

Username: bablti

Date posted: 57d ago

This is my main OCD theme. It is horrendous. I'm exhausted

Username: Erin P

Date posted: 57d ago

Like any compulsion, asking for reassurance just leads to more uncertainty and more confession urges. Resisting confessions is the first step - and sitting with the anxiety of resisting and accepting that you don’t have certainty. That’s the hard thing about ERP - resisting what OCD wants you to do. But it’s what gives you back your life.

Username: sydney2147

Date posted: 57d ago

@Erin P I agree, i’m still struggling to sit with the uncertainty. Every day gets a little bit easier, and it’s a work in progress for sure.

Username: Erin P

Date posted: 57d ago

@sydney2147 Sounds like you are making progress. I know it’s hard. You can do it.