I literally just almost had a full panic attack at the fact that I can think … like I sat there while I was thinking something in my head. and I have ocd where I like to feel even in my body usually and I felt like I couldn’t feel my head or control it .. it just scared me so much.
I’m so sorry that happened to you… I’m suffering a lot too with my HOCD, POCD, and real events OCD…
@Givenup It’s okay , and I’m sorry that you are dealing with that. I’m kinda struggling right now. My mind is all over the place and I can’t stop thinking about how I’m thinking? like idk.
@justsomone1 Hopeless I don't think there's any hope in my life.. can't even tell if people think i have HOCD and POCD and real events OCD or that I'm in denial of all of this... plus it makes it feel so real every day... I don't ever want to ever be what my POCD, HOCD, and real events ocd say about me... and plus I keep mistaking guys for girls because my glasses broke and im blind... and my real events OCD based on porn when I was 17-18, and extremely horrible real events I did when I was 13 for my POCD make me think im in denial... and im dealing with heartbreak that a girl rejected me and it's near Valentine's Day so im basically alone...
@Givenup honestly the whole mistaking girls and guys , I don’t think that’s a big deal. you’re simply paranoid and your glasses broke , and I know how it feels ocd seriously feels like it rules over you.
@justsomone1 What about the HOCD, POCD, and real events OCD based on porn for my HOCD and POCD, and the extremely horrible real events I did when I was 13…?
@Givenup what about them .?
@justsomone1 Do you think I’m what my HOCD and POCD and real events OCD say I am because of all of this…?
@justsomone1 I don’t ever want to ever be what my POCD HOCD and real events ocd say about me…
@Givenup Don’t give up
@Maryanna Do you think I’m what my OCD says about me…? Based on the comment where I’m hopeless?
@Givenup No !!! Not all you’re the opposite
@justsomone1 What if you did something extremely horrible as a child that you didn’t know how horrible the events were that your POCD and real events OCD targets? Does it make the intrusive thoughts true? I'm getting anxious from my POCD and real event OCD based on real events (3 times) from when I was 13…… I don't ever want to ever be a P at all… I don't ever want to ever be a Chomo at all... i don’t ever want to ever be a rapist at all… I was 13 when these real events happened and now I'm 20... I've asked my mom about this so many times and every time she tells me that it's not serious anymore, that the person is okay, and that I'm not a rapist or a P or a chomo... I didn’t realize how horrible the real events actually were… I was 13 at the time… now I’m 20… my POCD and real event OCD call me a P or a chomo because of the real events… while my mom reassures me all the time that it’s all over, that it’s not serious anymore, that the person is okay, and that I’m not a P or a rapist or a chomo, but when I was doing compulsive research, I remember when I saw a post on a non OCD forum about someone’s similar situation to mine and two people said to the person that they m*lested and that they needed to turn themselves in… I don’t ever want to ever be a P or a chomo in any way shape or form… i didn’t know how horrible the real events were when I was 13… I really didn’t… and after the real events I never did anything like that ever again, and I never once ever thought (before, and after) about doing stuff with kids in any way shape or form... I never once fantasized about kids or wanted to do anything with kids… I was 13 and didn’t realize how horrible the actions were at the time and I never did it ever again… I never once fantasized about kids before or after the real event… I don't ever want to ever harm a child in any way shape or form... I seriously don't ever want to do that to any child in any way shape or form and I seriously don't ever want to do anything like that to any kid now or in the future… I never have had any fantasies about kids and I don't ever want to... I don't ever want to ever be a P or a chomo in any way shape or form... I was 13….. and after the real events I never did anything like that ever again, and I never once ever thought (before, and after) about doing stuff with kids in any way shape or form... I never once fantasized about kids or wanted to do anything with kids… I was 13 and didn’t realize how horrible the actions were at the time and I never did it ever again… I never once fantasized about kids before or after the real event… And it’s comparing me to actual P’s and chomo’s who did stuff throughout the ages of 12-15… and making me think I’m a P and a Chomo because of it… I don’t ever want to ever be a P or a chomo in any way… 😭😭😭
@Givenup if it makes you feel better when I was 11 , I did stuff that would consider me a p now days. and sometimes I sit back and think on it and feel like shit but I was young I didn’t know morals , and it doesn’t define you now.
My ocd has been flaring up lately I’ve noticed some things that I don’t know if it’s ocd or something else whenever I seen someone like drugged or sick or just not “normal” I feel like or get scared that’s gonna end up being me? Does that make sense or then after a few minutes I feel like I’m them I don’t know exactly how to explain it I feel like I’m gonna start acting crazy or like I act weird or like them ? Idk exactly how to explain it and I have such a drop in my stomach thinking of it because it makes me feel insane, I haven’t had such an ocd episode so it’s getting hard again and making me feel insane specially because I don’t know how to explain this that I feel, I feel so scared rn can someone please comment on this?
I want to rip out my uterus. Only my hormones can make my OCD and ability to manage it go back to square one. I am spiraling *so* hard. I cannot breathe. My PMDD is going crazy. I’m having a panic attack again. I feel so scared. The POCD is going absolutely insane right now. It feels undeniably real, and my mind keeps drifting to those awful thoughts and what feels like exploring them?? but I can’t for the life of me stop some of these compulsions right now. I was trying to watch something to get my mind off of this but ended up getting triggered twice, so my anxiety is a 10 and I can’t seem to calm down. This panic attack is tuned all the way up.
I had a horrible thought and it was my own thought. I feel awful. Also my heart is racing all the time
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