My medication caused me POCD and i’m a nanny and i’m terrified of one thing happening that keeps entering my brain. Since it is one thing over and over again does that make it not ocd? I’m so scared and don’t know if I deserve to be here
I am sorry you are having a difficult time. OCD is relentless in its pursuit and strikes us where we are most vulnerable and demand something of us that we cannot have - certainty. Here is how I handle any ocd situation - if it feels like ocd, acts like ocd and makes me anxious - I ASSUME it is ocd - but I don’t try to get a 100% answer that it is. It is like when you go to the doctor presenting with symptoms of a cold - and the doctor examines you and assumes that it is a cold - because that is what the symptoms are presenting as. Trying to “figure it out” leads to compulsions which in turn strengthens the ocd. Sitting in the middle - saying to yourself this is behaving like ocd so I am going to assume it is ocd. And move on with what you were doing. Will anxiety go away immediately - no. Will the thought magically disappear - no. But with a lot of practice and erp work it will become more manageable. Be kind to yourself through the erp process. Having ocd is a challenge and you do the best you can - so have self compassion. It is important. I hope this helps.
@Jeffrey That did help a lot , I feel like I don’t have ocd like everyone else I obsess ABOut one sentence! Is that kinda how your guys is?
@Norman12! It is different for each person. Sometimes it is one sentence for me and other times it is a whole storyline.
@Jeffrey I get images :(
@Jeffrey Ya for years mine has only been one sentence and that’s it 😭
@Anonymous Uh thank god I don’t
Ocd is definitely such a weird illness. I worked with kids for almost 5-6 years and NEVER had thoughts like that. The weekend before I went to work I watched a documentary that included child abuse and it must’ve latched onto my thoughts. I think the most confusing thing for me is that I can be around kids and not be triggered but it’s the adults like coworkers and parents that trigger me. I’m worried about what they would think of me especially since I’m graduating this spring to be a teacher. So frustrating, one thought changed my life and I’m slowly getting better so I’m not losing hope and neither should you!!
Fellow nanny here! The theme I technically fall under is POCD as well however I also get confused sometimes because my mind only obsesses over one command thought I had this summer while changing a diaper at the center I worked at which absolutely terrified me because ocd thoughts can come without warning, and at the time I did not know I had ocd which made it even scarier. If you have more questions I would reach out to a therapist. I started therapy at NOCD in January almost 6 months after the initial thought and I wish I got help sooner because during that time my guilt and shame just latched on more!
@Kenzz Changing diaper is my fear right now too! Well that is super interesting. I know reassurance isn’t good but it’s the only thing I know to help it right now
I have ocd with my daughter or flares up once in awhile it’s a sentence harm one it’s horrible I feel awful
POCD Trigger: I really hate this disorder and I don’t know how much longer I can do this for. I work at a daycare and I’m constantly bombarded with these thoughts that I have hurt a child or even molested them. It is the worst feeling and part of me knows I’d never do that but my OCD really does take over my life. Today, for instance, I was rocking on of the children and I rocked them for two seconds by accident and it told me I molested them. And when I when to pick them up to put them in the play area my hand accidente touched the front of their leg and it told me again I had hurt them, a similar thing happened with another child today where I was feeding them and I accidentally rocked them and I was now a molester. It really is the hardest disorder to deal with. And I hate how it attacked my occupation, I love working with kids and child psychology and everything, but my ocd is really affecting everything.
I have severe OCD and I experience all different types of intrusive thoughts and compulsions I fucking hate it! But one thing I struggle with the most is POCD! It makes me violently sick and disturbed but I know it’s not me and I know it’s not true but then why do I feel so disgusting? I have two children, one 5 and the other is 1, I don’t want to change my daughters nappys I don’t want to get her dressed (of course I do because I don’t have a choice) but it triggers me so bad and gets me in a state, I don’t know how to get over this I’ve had this certain thought for over six weeks and I can’t do it anymore, I’m so distressed they deserve better, why can’t I just be a normal person, I’ve actually thought about giving them up over these thoughts it’s breaking me and it’s breaking my heart, I actually can’t try beat this anymore.
Hello I am new to this application. I am 34 years old and I’m not sure if I have OCD but I’ve noticed that the last two weeks I have been having these horrible thoughts I can’t believe I am having them. It makes me so sad and scared and I can’t seem to stop crying. I’m going on week two feeling this way and can’t seem to get myself out of it. How can I possibly have thoughts about harming my child? They are the precious gift from God. They’re my flesh and bone how can I?? The anxiety I get every day has turned into having it all day and night, just the thought of How I can could possibly think of such thing, now followed by depression and lack of sleep. I have never had this problem ever up until now. I can’t even watch any crime shows or the news because it spikes my anxiety. I can’t even look at anything like knives, guns because it causes me major distress.
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