Invalidation

I am not diagnosed with OCD, but I have a strong belief that I have it. Just recently, I came to the realization that maybe my anxiety wasn’t just anxiety, but OCD (I’ve had suspicions over time, beginning in elementary) I’ve been looking into OCD as of late. I relate a ton. But I’m afraid that I’m seeing these symptoms and falsely believing that I relate. Like I’m making myself have these symptoms because I think I should. I’ve not been able to think clearly at all recently. I can’t stop thinking about me having OCD, what that means for me, what I should do, and if I even have it and am faking everything. I’ve always had struggles with invalidating my mental illnesses because it could be worse or I’m faking it or whatever.

XANDRIMICHELE

Date posted: 3y

This is so relatable for a second there I thought I wrote it. This is me down to a tea. Honestly I may not have the best advice but I can say, your not alone.

a_melody

Date posted: 3y

@XANDRIMICHELE It definitely helps to know somebody else is having the same struggle and I’m not completely alone

dilemma

Date posted: 3y

Sometimes I believe I have OCD and the next day I convince myself I don’t. Sounds like you might have it

Kyle

Date posted: 3y

I know how confusing it can be! And I understand what you mean about invalidating your struggles. Have you ever met with a therapist in the past?

a_melody

Date posted: 3y

@ I’ve had quite a few therapists in the past. One of them got promoted so she stopped seeing me, another got a new job. Then there were a few I didn’t get along with. So sparse progress was made considering the little time I had with each therapist, and my family has always had trouble with maintaining insurance. But I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression in middle school. Haven’t been to therapy since though

Kyle

Date posted: 3y

@a_melody - I'm sorry to hear it's been hard finding good therapy. Thank you for sharing. Are you thinking of starting to see someone again? Working with someone specialized in OCD & ERP is the most important thing!

a_melody

Date posted: 3y

@ I don’t have the money right now. But I’ve been looking into things I can do by myself. Like read articles on it, watching YouTube videos on coping with ocd, and whatnot. I think it’s helping. But for sure, once I’m in a place where I can afford a therapist, I will.

Kyle

Date posted: 3y

@a_melody - Of course, I understand that. We have so many blogs and youtube videos, as well as the live webinars - those are great places for support. We will be here for you when circumstances change. Have you heard of or listened to the OCD Stories podcast? Great content and free resource!

Katherine C ♡

Date posted: Yesterday

This sounds like i did a brain dump and wrote it down. I understand how you feel. My therapists thought I was schizo or had bpd or bipolar and I felt like I would say things and do things involuntarily to convince myself that they were right? And i had a friend at the ward a few years ago and he had DID. And all of a sudden, I had it too (I don't). Same thing w tics. And i hate it cus i see so many people faking things and I don't want to be one of them. Ever since I've started this nocd journey i feel like I've pushed myself into doing certain things like outwardly expressing more to my family abt my tendencies and how I need everything to be perfect.

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