- Date posted
- 2y
Haven’t Eaten In Days
I’ve been wanting to talk on here cause I just can’t find a solution yet. There’s some things that you must know, during Christmas my parents left to visit family in Mexico I didn’t go cause I was scared and I just didn’t want to leave my room knowing that a mice might come into the house and other things that would trigger me if I went with them. Anyways, I was really sad cause they knew I’ve had a very very hard year and still left me alone I mean you could say I’m disabled but I didn’t say anything idk I just figured they should know better? Idk (Last year I had a major breakdown cause a mice got all the way up into my gaming set up I stopped streaming, and we’ll basically didn’t touch anything that was on that desk set up when that happened for a good 6-7 months) I mention the above cause now (this year) a mice or at least that’s what I think some how got into my vehicle and I had left a bag from BK with ketchup packs, it was already really hard for me to go out and get groceries welp to eat and stuff I had been doing it and I was starting to even be able to get into that car (cause I couldn’t even get on it cause that car was “contaminated” used to go and play soccer) btw sorry if this is all confusing.... So I managed to do that but then after a month or the third time I went to get my groceries and putting my stuff in the car I saw a ketchup pack all in bits I figured they were lady bugs that had done that cause here during the winter a lot of them come out and get between cars doors without taking to much attention I got my stuff in and drove back to my house. I was about to get all the stuff into my house but I couldn’t cause something happened that triggered me and I had I had to leave most of the groceries in the car. Just got down the things that needed to be refrigerated. Since I really can’t go out much it took me 2 days to go back out and get the groceries inside my home I clean them so after taking a shower I was about to clean them just to find out that the part where they tie the bag of loaf bread was “scratched” I instantly left it in the bag and then stopped taking the bread out and went to wash my hands cause I thought it had been a mice that tried to get that I haven’t touched any of the groceries since then. I had some food still left and was able to eat 1 time per day for a week almost but now I have nothing and also don’t have much or nothing to drink. Actually my lips are so dry and haven’t used the toilet in 2-3 days. Today I will try and go get a burger or som I have managed to convince myself to go in another truck even tho there are some chances that the mice could have gotten into that truck also idk this truck we use to go and throw trash away and I will be doing that too. It was maybe my fault cause I haven’t done this in some time and that’s what attracted rodent to get into the other vehicle I left the groceries on for 2 days. And welp after some days this is the day I’ll have some food in my stomach even if it’s fast food. I haven’t talked or told my mom or dad what’s going on, I mean why would they care? They left me 🤷🏻♂️ I don’t blame them for what’s going on or anything but idk I just don’t see me leaving my son alone seeing him how hard 2022 was for him and still struggling I’m sorry if it’s confusing it’s just a really long story and basically I just couldn’t do much by myself cause of what happened December 2021 (gaming set up etc part) I just don’t know what to do, I have the groceries sitting on the kitchen bar but haven’t touched them they just there Prob won’t find any solution either here but idk I had to say it to some one. The thing I’ve been thing bout is that just admit that a rodent was there and throw away the groceries? There’s some packed things that look “intact” but the idea of something being there idk I mean you guys know OCD tells you that it’s all over even if they are “intact” also have some teas and drinks that I could just wash with hand soap idk 😐 Sorry for the long text and I’m ESL please don’t get mad for my English Btw I live in TN so it’s a farm life, barn and nursery and stuff.