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I feel you girl. I’ve always liked boys but my mind try’s to tell me I didn’t. -this is weird but when I was really young I thought my dad was really cute. I was like 3 or 4 so I didn’t know right from wrong -I also grew up with this boy that wasn’t related to me, I liked him always. I wanted to date him and stuff I always had a little crush on him. -Guys from movies I always thought some boy was cute in a movie/tv show -I also get the thought what if it’s not hocd and it’s just me denying it We’re going to get through it, I don’t get anxiety anymore too and that scares me. Because when I do ERP I don’t always get anxious. I did it today and felt sick but that’s the most I feel :(
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I remember I was on a beach trip and there was this boy who stayed in the same place as me and he was beautiful and I would literally watch him play in the pool like a freak? What a stalker!! I’m a weirdo, I literally would try to find him all the time because I thought he was sooo cute, turns out he was like 18 and I was 13?
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I didn’t really have very many boy cousins but I always liked boys. I remember I saw this waiter at a restaurant and I was so nervous because he was so cute I couldn’t even look at him when I was ordering??♀️ I was a mess!!
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omg there was this waiter at this restaurant/party I was at. And keep in mind I still had hocd at the time (still do) but he was assigned the other side of the room so the whole night I just kept admiring him and then gave up hope of him coming near my table. So I started using my phone, then noticed someone picking up my napkin trash near my plate lmao bc I always manage to put my napkins next to my plate. I look up and lordddd it was him I had butterflies and he accidentally pushed my plate (idk how to describe the moment like it was) and chuckled in embarrassment and oh boyyy was I swooning, I literally started blushing as I laughed w him, but he didn’t come back the rest of the night unfortunately so I just looked from the other side of the room LMao. I’d like to hold that as a reminder as even though I feel my attraction from boys slipping, I was always functioned to like boys and won’t let my mind trick me to believe otherwise.
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Went on this camping trip and there was the cutest teenage boy I was like 10 or so and I literally stalked him the entire time ?♀️ I also went to church camp and there was the hottest camp counselor he was like 17 I was like 12 and somehow I got his number and called him everyday and left him voicemails everyday for the rest of the summer ?♀️
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Lol! I had a crush on my boy cousins when I was very young! Sounds weird now but I think it’s normal before we find out societies views on the matter!! Lol that’s so funny because same girl, same same same!
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i’m dealing with the exact same thing rn.
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I remember one time I was in school in math class and me and this boy were talking and all the sudden we both stop talking and just looked at each other for like 30 seconds and then we stopped looking at each other and just started laughing. I didn’t really get butterflies but I thought about it for the rest of the day because it made me feel happy. I was blushing and that’s very hard for me to hide??
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wtf did he catch a case? :D
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BAHAHA
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Don’t worry chica, been there & done that
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I remember I went on the bus since I had to go somewhere w my brother, and I sat next to this really hot dude. I was shook to the max cause you don’t see cute dudes on the bus, especially in my area at all LMAO. And I was so nervous, at times I would accidentally lean towards him and he didn’t mind and I was super sad when I had to get off LOL
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Idk what else to title this. I was watching a film cooper video cuz why not and he mentioned smthn about wall paper customization and icons and stuff and I just kinda had a groinal response followed by the memory of me having my first crush on a woman (my friend at the time) that helped me figure out that I’m bi and I felt kinda intensely for her but that’s cuz a) it was new and b) we were kinda on again off again friends who haven’t spoken in a few years now and I’m over her entirely. It was toxic I think. She was too much like the person who bullied me in elementary school (they were friends as well so my mom made me cut her off which is. Fair. Made me really sad but eh that’s life) I saw her at prom cuz someone brought her. It was nice to see her but yeah that was it. And now I’m mentally comparing what I felt for women in the past (idk intense crush, listening to a lot of gay songs (think she by dodie) dressing semi masc cuz funky, we had nicknames for each other despite not dating or anything) to men (less intense crush but still big crush, I’ve only dated and kissed men so sparks rhere) and now I’m just slightly nauseous and worried that I don’t like men as much as I like women but I think that’s normal for any bi person? To have different levels of attraction to different genders? Idk I feel gross and icky now like I shouldn’t even be thinking about it or her cuz I have a bf. And I do look fondly upon it, now I’m nervous cuz I got more excited about her calling me a specific nickname than I do from my bf calling me honey even at the beginning? Honey felt more traditional and I love it but we do switch around nicknames and it’s always nice, not many butterflies anymore, and sometimes I get anxious when he does lately, if it’s a nickname in Portuguese. Or if he called me a shortened version of my name. What does that mean? I’m nervous now. I was doing half decently today now I’m nauseous again. I’m worried that cuz I liked the nicknames she and I had that means I don’t like the ones my bf and I have and that I just don’t like him or men cuz I’ve been feeling off around him. But I love when he calls me honey, it still feels good when he does it now but no butterflies. Idk what’s wrong with me. Is it even ocd at this point. Even if I do like women slightly more it doesn’t erase that I love my bf. I’m worried I’m leaning too much towards women tho and I’m a lesbian. Idk if my bi cycle is cycling or if I’m just a lesbian entirely cuz I don’t feel much when my bf takes off his shirt, sex feels different, and things feel stale and slow. But maybe that’s cuz I’m checking and comparing. Now I’m anxious fuck. I’m trying not to think about her idk why. I’m worried I still find her attractive or am attracted to her or smthn. She’s in my city. I didn’t care before but now I do. Or if I think about her I’ll think about other women and will only want to have sec with women which not really tbh. I wanna be able to enjoy sec with my bf. It just hasn’t felt right lately cuz I’ve been so depressed and obsessive. I wasn’t obsessing much last night when we had sex but it still didn’t feel passionate. It didn’t feel uncomfortable but I thought it’d be more? Idk. I know it’s normal to not feel him inside me cuz the vagina isn’t very nerved up compared to the clitoris but it felt like more the motions. But tbh. I needed it. Idk I wanted to have sex and it was a nice stress relief. I just didn’t feel butterflies which kinda bummed me out but we’ve been having sex since august so that’s normal. Idk. I haven’t been able to fantasize about sex. The fact that I’m bi makes all of this so confusing. Cuz yes hypothetically I can enjoy the thought of sex with a woman. But I don’t want to rn cuz I’m dating a man. And I can’t fantasize about sex with him cuz I’m getting intrusive thoughts about my friends and I having sex. I have this urge to watch porn cuz it’s been a while but I’m not going to. I’ve cut down a lot on masturbation. Partially cuz this partially cuz I wanna do things with my bf (when I’m mentally ok) but jow my brain is saying “Oo you think all these women are so hot you’re gonna go feral blah blah blah” and yes women are hot but I don’t wanna have sex with a woman. Idk saying women are hot doesn’t bring me anxiety but the thought of sex with one or leaving my bf and saying I’m a lesbian bother me. Cuz I know it’s not true. I love him I know that. I’d be happy if we stayed together. I wouldn’t regret a thing honestly. I like having sex with him. Idc if it’s not like porn or the movies. As long as I’m being pleasured and he’s being pleasured we’re good. That’s what sex is about. I think the loss of butterflies is normal cuz the excitement of like (sorry tmi) fingering and oral eventually wears off right? But still feels good. I don’t feel as excited about intimacy anymore cuz we have done it so often but it still feels nice. But my brain perceives that as me not liking sex with men and therefore I’m gay. No I just don’t feel the need to jump his bones every single time I see him?? Idk the friend thing is bothering me. Idk if I feel any joy behind it. The groinal response really really throws my perception off
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I’m 25 and never ever thought this before my soocd relapse. I have a bf of 5 years. Never been a high libido kinda girl. Don’t get me wrong I do get turned on by my bf but not like every day you know? - That had always been in the back of my head, is this normal and ok? But my ocd has latched onto the most scariest what if EVER. My brain is now saying How do you know you won’t prefer to sleep and kiss girls if you haven’t tried it: and it’s that unknown that is scaring the shit out of me. I DONT AND NEVER HAVE wanted to sleep / kiss a girl. But now my intrusive thoughts is all I think about!!! I don’t want I don’t want I don’t want??? So why does my brain think BUT WHAT IF??? I know ocd thrives off uncertainty which is why I think this is happening? But I don’t wanna find out or work it out because all I want is to be with my bf and marry him!! Is this just the epitome of OCD?
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Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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