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I feel you girl. I’ve always liked boys but my mind try’s to tell me I didn’t. -this is weird but when I was really young I thought my dad was really cute. I was like 3 or 4 so I didn’t know right from wrong -I also grew up with this boy that wasn’t related to me, I liked him always. I wanted to date him and stuff I always had a little crush on him. -Guys from movies I always thought some boy was cute in a movie/tv show -I also get the thought what if it’s not hocd and it’s just me denying it We’re going to get through it, I don’t get anxiety anymore too and that scares me. Because when I do ERP I don’t always get anxious. I did it today and felt sick but that’s the most I feel :(
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I remember I was on a beach trip and there was this boy who stayed in the same place as me and he was beautiful and I would literally watch him play in the pool like a freak? What a stalker!! I’m a weirdo, I literally would try to find him all the time because I thought he was sooo cute, turns out he was like 18 and I was 13?
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I didn’t really have very many boy cousins but I always liked boys. I remember I saw this waiter at a restaurant and I was so nervous because he was so cute I couldn’t even look at him when I was ordering??♀️ I was a mess!!
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- 6y
omg there was this waiter at this restaurant/party I was at. And keep in mind I still had hocd at the time (still do) but he was assigned the other side of the room so the whole night I just kept admiring him and then gave up hope of him coming near my table. So I started using my phone, then noticed someone picking up my napkin trash near my plate lmao bc I always manage to put my napkins next to my plate. I look up and lordddd it was him I had butterflies and he accidentally pushed my plate (idk how to describe the moment like it was) and chuckled in embarrassment and oh boyyy was I swooning, I literally started blushing as I laughed w him, but he didn’t come back the rest of the night unfortunately so I just looked from the other side of the room LMao. I’d like to hold that as a reminder as even though I feel my attraction from boys slipping, I was always functioned to like boys and won’t let my mind trick me to believe otherwise.
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Went on this camping trip and there was the cutest teenage boy I was like 10 or so and I literally stalked him the entire time ?♀️ I also went to church camp and there was the hottest camp counselor he was like 17 I was like 12 and somehow I got his number and called him everyday and left him voicemails everyday for the rest of the summer ?♀️
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Lol! I had a crush on my boy cousins when I was very young! Sounds weird now but I think it’s normal before we find out societies views on the matter!! Lol that’s so funny because same girl, same same same!
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i’m dealing with the exact same thing rn.
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I remember one time I was in school in math class and me and this boy were talking and all the sudden we both stop talking and just looked at each other for like 30 seconds and then we stopped looking at each other and just started laughing. I didn’t really get butterflies but I thought about it for the rest of the day because it made me feel happy. I was blushing and that’s very hard for me to hide??
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wtf did he catch a case? :D
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BAHAHA
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Don’t worry chica, been there & done that
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I remember I went on the bus since I had to go somewhere w my brother, and I sat next to this really hot dude. I was shook to the max cause you don’t see cute dudes on the bus, especially in my area at all LMAO. And I was so nervous, at times I would accidentally lean towards him and he didn’t mind and I was super sad when I had to get off LOL
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- 24w
I've always found women pretty and admired them since I was younger, never wanted to be with them or anything. I always pictured having a boyfriend and my crushes were always boys. I have a boyfriend now but because this has happened I feel nothing towards him or any men. To be honest I'm so exhausted I don't feel much at all, there was so much anxiety at the start and now there is none. Does that mean I have accepted the thoughts. My mind keeps going you were suppressed all these years but I do find women pretty so that's what's making it worse. Am I just in denial and being delusional? I never doubted my sexuality before this I always considered myself to be straight but I feels like my mind has been twisted and can't remember any attraction to guys but can remember thinking girls are pretty? Does this mean it's all real? I don't know anymore
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- 17w
So pretty much I’ve been dealing with intrusive thoughts my entire life, I had no idea could’ve been symptom of OCD until maybe a year ago , I have this fear right now that I don’t actually love my fiancé and I’m not attracted to men. I am attracted to men. Let me be clear. I’m not attracted to females. I never have been and I never will be. But it’s one of the scariest thoughts I’ve ever had that I don’t actually care about the person that I would sacrifice anything for that I would do anything for. He’s pretty much the closest family that I have and I just wanna be with him for the rest of my life. A couple months ago was that I just didn’t care at all, and I didn’t have any feelings and everything that I felt was me being fake in that nothing was real. But I eventually got over that and the new thought is that I’m actually gay even though I know I’m not. And in the world we live in now where it’s be yourself be you if it comes across your mind. That’s the obvious truth. Be yourself… It’s kind of scary to think about. I just want it to leave me alone. I’m actually so scared that eventually I’ll believe it because some thoughts that I’ve learned were intrusive. I ended up starting to believe and it turned into a whole catastrophe for my life. I met this girl and she felt a certain way about her husband and then she told me that eventually I’ll feel that way and ever since then I just I haven’t gotten over this fear that I’m gonna end up feeling the same way she is. Also, I recently got over a few themes. I’m not ready to share, but I’m so proud that I got over those and I just I’m waiting for this one to leave me alone and it’s not and I’m starting to get really scared that it’s true and I don’t want it to be true. and just to be very clear I don’t care who you love what you love who you like what you identify as because you can in fact be yourself but this just doesn’t feel like me. I’m genuinely reaching out to try to get help for this because now it’s messing with our personal life. We’ve never argued so much in our entire relationship and now I realize that it’s mainly my fault because I’m detaching myself from all emotion just so that I can get over this thought I’m detaching myself from all intimacy and that’s even scarier because what if it’s not me detaching myself and it’s me just not being attracted that’s another thought I’ve hadI’ve gone all long enough so thanks.
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- 16w
I don’t know if it’s SOOCD. I no longer feel anxious in the moment when I think about women, and it’s like my imagination wants me to think about it and get aroused. I don’t want to be gay, but maybe I am after all. In my life I haven’t been so sexually driven before (when I was living with a man, or when being single) but now all I can think about is having sex with a woman. I don’t want to, but somehow my body does and it feels like my mind have changed to accept it to.. feel so sad This all started around 4 weeks ago..
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