My anxiety is pretty much gone...the thoughts are not...here’s the thoughts I’m having... -it’s not hocd this time, it’s the real thing -omg you’re attracted to your friend you’ve known for 18 years and you’re just now realizing it -when you see your boyfriend you’re gonna realize you don’t love him because you’re a lesbian -then I get intrusive thoughts about kissing girls...over and over and over again The hardest part is that the anxiety is gone so I don’t know if these are real thoughts...what if they are? What if I’m lying to myself? What if every boy I have ever fallen for in the past was just a cover? What if one day I’ll wake up and decide that men just don’t do it for me anymore? But I love them. I always have. The broad shoulders, the big arms, the height, the scent, the feeling of a boner on my butt while we spoon (so sorry tmi moment), I’ve loved them since I was 3! What the hell happened?

I feel you girl. I’ve always liked boys but my mind try’s to tell me I didn’t. -this is weird but when I was really young I thought my dad was really cute. I was like 3 or 4 so I didn’t know right from wrong -I also grew up with this boy that wasn’t related to me, I liked him always. I wanted to date him and stuff I always had a little crush on him. -Guys from movies I always thought some boy was cute in a movie/tv show -I also get the thought what if it’s not hocd and it’s just me denying it We’re going to get through it, I don’t get anxiety anymore too and that scares me. Because when I do ERP I don’t always get anxious. I did it today and felt sick but that’s the most I feel :(

I remember I was on a beach trip and there was this boy who stayed in the same place as me and he was beautiful and I would literally watch him play in the pool like a freak? What a stalker!! I’m a weirdo, I literally would try to find him all the time because I thought he was sooo cute, turns out he was like 18 and I was 13?

I didn’t really have very many boy cousins but I always liked boys. I remember I saw this waiter at a restaurant and I was so nervous because he was so cute I couldn’t even look at him when I was ordering??‍♀️ I was a mess!!

omg there was this waiter at this restaurant/party I was at. And keep in mind I still had hocd at the time (still do) but he was assigned the other side of the room so the whole night I just kept admiring him and then gave up hope of him coming near my table. So I started using my phone, then noticed someone picking up my napkin trash near my plate lmao bc I always manage to put my napkins next to my plate. I look up and lordddd it was him I had butterflies and he accidentally pushed my plate (idk how to describe the moment like it was) and chuckled in embarrassment and oh boyyy was I swooning, I literally started blushing as I laughed w him, but he didn’t come back the rest of the night unfortunately so I just looked from the other side of the room LMao. I’d like to hold that as a reminder as even though I feel my attraction from boys slipping, I was always functioned to like boys and won’t let my mind trick me to believe otherwise.

Went on this camping trip and there was the cutest teenage boy I was like 10 or so and I literally stalked him the entire time ?‍♀️ I also went to church camp and there was the hottest camp counselor he was like 17 I was like 12 and somehow I got his number and called him everyday and left him voicemails everyday for the rest of the summer ?‍♀️

Lol! I had a crush on my boy cousins when I was very young! Sounds weird now but I think it’s normal before we find out societies views on the matter!! Lol that’s so funny because same girl, same same same!

i’m dealing with the exact same thing rn.

I remember one time I was in school in math class and me and this boy were talking and all the sudden we both stop talking and just looked at each other for like 30 seconds and then we stopped looking at each other and just started laughing. I didn’t really get butterflies but I thought about it for the rest of the day because it made me feel happy. I was blushing and that’s very hard for me to hide??

wtf did he catch a case? :D

BAHAHA

Don’t worry chica, been there & done that

I remember I went on the bus since I had to go somewhere w my brother, and I sat next to this really hot dude. I was shook to the max cause you don’t see cute dudes on the bus, especially in my area at all LMAO. And I was so nervous, at times I would accidentally lean towards him and he didn’t mind and I was super sad when I had to get off LOL