Worried

I just left my apartment and was heading out ,when a guy who was black poked his head out of the elevator and scared me by accident. I immediately apologized bc i think i jumped or gasped a little. Then i was like 'what if he thinks I'm racist if I take the stairs like i usually do instead of the elevator ' bc i usually take the stairs since I'm on the 2nd floor. I went over and tried to go in the elevator but it was already closing. So he awkwardly held it open and I apologized again. I stood in the elevator and I think he took a step away from me. I'm scared i was racist somehow and it felt rly awkward overall.

Hey everyone, I’m having a real rough go of it at the moment. I’m not even sure if this is ocd related, but I definitely need some advice. I’ve been with my bf for 5 months. He is amazing, supportive, and I just really love him. This is my first long term relationship, so it’s come with challenges, including some really intense relationship anxiety. He’s got a good deal of female friends, which I’m fine with. I don’t mind him talking about his female friends at all. I feel like he often brings up this one girl in conversation. Like it’s not every time, but it’s enough that I think he’s fond of her as a friend. However, I’ve developed this pretty intense fear that he likes her. Like isn’t there some sort of saying that if someone talks about someone alot, they like them?? She dates his best friend/roommate. He seems fine with them dating and is happy for them. I don’t really know exactly why I am worried, but this definitely makes me feel insecure. I am remember him telling me at the beginning of the relationship that his friends figured out that he liked me so much because he talked about me alot. So I guess my mind sort of connects the dots to her, thinking that because he sometimes will bring her up, for sometimes what I believe, for no good reason. And I’ll say that it’s not like there isn’t reason, and it’s completely random, I just feel like I’m convincing myself that it’s a concern. I also hyperanalyze their interactions when he’s around her. Like he likes to joke with her and stuff like that. It does make me feel insecure, even though I have guy friends that I’m super fond of and joke with a good deal (very hypocritical of me). I’m just very confused. I don’t want to be stupid and blind and disregard this, so I guess that that is the grand fear, but I also tend to over analyze, over think, and think the absolute worse, sooooo I

so i start therapy tomorrow. but bro it’s just getting worse and im so scared. like the thoughts are getting more frequent and i genuinely feel evil and i hate it. i keep thinking what if i do it and im scared im eventually gonna. i’m scared i give off a creepy vibe or im lying to myself or others. please tell me is this ocd? do i need to be actually worried? i’m really freaking out