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I just feel like it happened im so scared it feels like it actually happened,please can someone talk I’m really struggling
I just feel like it happened im so scared it feels like it actually happened,please can someone talk I’m really struggling
I feel the same with my memories.
@KateWiley I know :( how are you doing rn?
@LiIac Not so good. Nothing seems to work with me, still trying to figure out what I can do to help myself. I'm waiting on therapy, that's why, so I'm trying to cope in the meantime.
@KateWiley Thats good,do you have any questions? I’d be happy to help :)
@LiIac One question (mostly bc my ocd only peaked last year) does false memory always feel like this? Like you actually remember it and have done it? Cause my false memories are about things I've felt in the past and it always feels like it did happen.
@KateWiley Yes sometimes,the memory I don’t know is true or not was just a flash of an image and it felt like it happened and then I kept thinking about it and it added more details and,it feels like it did happen sometimes and I’m scared becuase I remember saying maybe it’s false and that’s when it started to feel false so I thought it must be true then becuase i thought that
@LiIac Mine stem from real events so I know it happened but I think it's adding things that weren't there before. It tells me that i knew before though and was in denial or something
@KateWiley I have the same of another situation
@LiIac Also some memories i can tell are false and it makes me worried that the others are true if I can't tell or if I feel they're true
@KateWiley Omg yes exactly
@KateWiley I’m so so terrified
@LiIac You have that problem too?? It's really frustrating
@LiIac It all started with a what if for me and I tried to hold it off but it wouldn't stop so I tried to remember and it seemed like my fears came true
@KateWiley But that’s why I think mines is probaly true becuase it don’t start of with a what if and that’s terrifying
@LiIac I think mine is true bc of how it felt like a realization when it happened and after the what if I remembered it so simply right away. But one thing I've heard is that intrusive thoughts or false memories don't have to start out as a what if. And apparently ocd can mimic anything.
@KateWiley Omg that’s the same with me I swear it felt like a realisation and I swear I can remember what I felt im so scared
@LiIac Yeah it was like this big wave going through my head and it shook me. I felt like it was absolutely true.
@KateWiley The real event it surrounded happened around 5 months prior to the memory so that's also why I felt it was real
@KateWiley Yess same,I panicked so much
@KateWiley Yes I know what you mean
@LiIac I didn't panic. I was just so shook and I just kept thinking "it's true it's true"
@KateWiley Yeah I thought that too, I was thinking how can this be true and then the panic started to set in
@KateWiley And I had a panic attack
@LiIac I had panic when I tried to start proving it wrong and I kept getting what if this is the real memory what if this is true, etc.
@KateWiley I know that’s the same for me
@KateWiley Do you want to talk somewhere else?instagram? Sms?
@LiIac It sucks 😕
@LiIac My insta is 1145_may
@KateWiley I Followed you :)
Yeah if you would like to talk my insta is pere.z8068
@Anonymous Thankyou :)
Please help me. I need support. I just need someone to be up front with me. Tell me the truth. I want to get past it all. I'm struggling STRUGGLING today. My mind is telling me I'm the only one who is dealing with something like this. Idk why I did my biggest fear. I was put on a new medication when this happened which caused me to spiral, my thoughts to be more often, and have insomnia. I have been diagnosed with POCD as well. I woke up in the middle of the night when my child was laying completely cross my chest. I was breathing and having groinal sensations. My mind told me that I assaulted her by this, and I was going to prison for it. My thoughts started going like this, "you're already bad might as well do something else", "no sense in stopping now" "you can finally do what you've always wanted", "what would you do if you could do anything to cause harm" So I had to think of what to do in the moment. The only thing I could think to do was move my elbow towards my child's groin. In the moment it felt like I really wanted to do this. I proceeded to do so, and my elbow touched her groin. I immediately told my child to move off me. I then went back to sleep. When I woke up, I began panicking, confessing to a family member what happened, and crying immensely. I feel like I failed as a mother. I'm in such distress since I started sleeping on the floor to avoid it from happening again, and I got off the medication. I'm so much better OCD wise since I got off the meds. I was the BEST mom months ago before this happened. The thoughts have always bothered me, and I was always scared I would give in and act on them. I'm living my worst nightmare. I feel alone. Felt so wanted in the moment and SO real. Ugh. Could someone just give me some support? (edited)
I have had the same false memory/instrusive image of me doing something horrible to someone when I was 12 and they were younger. It is a memory based on a real event. I truly don’t know if it’s real or not but obviously, the more I think about it the more I think it’s true. This has led my mind to become slightly paranoid. I worry that if this horrible image in my head is true then one day the person I might have hurt will come and k*ll me. I’m really scared I feel like I won’t feel better as long as this “memory” is in my head. Does anyone have advice?
I have disturbing thoughts. I am very upset. Someone please help me. Please talk to me.
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