I know this is probably just my ocd but i always worry that because I like drinking I am or will turn into an alcoholic. Another thing is I prefer drinking at home because I don't want to worry about finding a way home when drunk, and I don't mind drinking alone either. I literally always worry about this and now I feel guilty when I drink at all

Alcohol and OCD: A cruel mistress! Hi all. I wanted to share my thoughts and potentially start a discussion about the role of alcohol in OCD. Certainly in my case I think it is a fundamental contributor to my suffering, and I'm not surprised about the statistics related to how many OCD sufferers also suffer from problematic drinking. My current obsessive themes are Real Event/guilt OCD and are often related to situations and events where I was incredibly drunk with fuzzy and missing memories, or my drunkenness contributed to certain actions that I now obsessively regret. Whilst this was in the past, alcohol is still contributing to my suffering, and I'm starting to wonder whether I would be much happier without it. I find that after sometimes months of feeling fine, most if not all of my major relapses have occurred directly after a night of heavy drinking, and that spark has sent me spiralling for days and sometimes weeks. I then became obsessed about limiting my drinking in certain situations, I had a fear that if I was drunk I would end up committing some horrible crime or cheating on my partner. Now though I'm finding that I'm drinking moderate amounts of alcohol on a very regular basis, just to take my mind off my obsessions, which is very unhealthy. When I have a drink, even just one, it feels like my thoughts just almost vanish in importance, it's like a beautiful break from all the suffering. This feeling scares me a little and I now worry that I might be verging on some form of dependency on alcohol. I'm not looking for any reassurance here, just wanted to share my experience and chat with others who might also be struggling in this way.

Sooo, finally legal in my country and decided to experiment with alcohol. After a while I realised I liked the tastes of certain ones and also realised it was expensive and it takes me a while to even get remotely tipsy. Also. I do follow a religion that prohibits alcohol. So I made the decision to stop. But I keep having a slight itch to drink. It’s not even for the alcohol part, because as we’ve established i don’t get drunk easily. I just like the taste of wine. So today I went to the store and brought a sparkling fruit juice. Thinking it’d taste similar . And it has no alcohol in it. I even checked the label and even googled it several times . My younger brother asked for a a bit and I said sure. Now I’m spiralling, because the taste is so similar to wine. And I realised the sparkling drink was made specifically to be an alcohol alternative. what if the company gets exposed for actually being alcoholic. What if I introduced my brother to a life style of alcoholism. What if me buying this is a sign I’ll try alcohol again. What if I become addicted to escape low moments. What if I can’t stop. I even follow accounts now about recovering from alcohol to put me off ever trying it again.

I keep drinking alcohol to cope with my ocd yesterday I was so drunk at the park my friend found me an took care of me. I’m going through a lot but drinking has been helping the thoughts finally to leave after over 5 years I’m happy I kinda don’t want to let this go. I’m able to go to work after a drink a little in the morning. I’m really at a lost for words I don’t know what’s the right thing anymore.