I'm looking for people that share my symptoms but haven't seen anyone yet š I have repetitive intrusive thoughts and self talk, and obsession with symmetry and "just right" ocd. It's very exhausting.
just curious what do you mean by self talk? i have some symptoms i would call that but idk if we r talking about the same thing
It's hard to explain but I always repeat to myself things I need to do, or things I've already done, or talk to myself about everyday things that happen in my life, and if it doesn't sound right I have to say it over until it does.. In my mind and when I'm talking to people too, If someone interrupts me when I'm in the middle of saying something, I have to start over so it's "just right" and to make sure that they heard me and understand. I also ruminate on things I've said or done or what other people say and do. I also have a need for symmetry and I don't like odd numbers. I sometimes feel panicky if I feel like something isn't straight or even..or done the "right way".There's more but anyway I hope that makes sense!
@EHope77 i get you!! i do rlly similar things. i think through things that happened during my day or stuff like that over and over as if i was telling someone about it. if i get interrupted or dont have it perfect i have to start over too. i dont have too many problems with symmetry but i get really stressed if things arent grouped right.. like if someone mixes markers and pencils in the pencil cups at work.
Very common on here, so it is t just you.
@Nica Isnāt*
Iām 19 and struggle with health anxiety, contamination, harm, and magical thinking OCD and would love to meet people with similar experiences and hardships because I have never had an opportunity for such a supportive community!
Hello, Iām new to this app. Iāve always had an anxious brain, and Iāve had coping mechanisms for as long as I can remember. When I was a kid, from as early as I could spell, until I was probably early teens, I would constantly write words in my head along to the beat of music. Itās such a vivid memory because I never stopped doing it. The word had to perfectly match up to the lyric and I loved that it kept my brain busy. I grew out of that, but felt like good context. My anxiety increased drastically around ages 17-19, and I began therapy. I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety and panic disorder, due to having a panic attack nearly every day at that time. I overcame that as well, and now the panic attacks are every now and then, but the anxiety is constant, and some recent symptoms have led me to believe I might have some form of OCD. Maybe not. Iām trying to understand myself and get better so I joined this app to make sense of things. Lately Iāve been having really intense intrusive thoughts. Iām really embarassed and they make me feel like a bad person. Thoughts pop in my head seemingly out of nowhere. It will be an image of me harming myself or someone else in a really bad way. (Trigger warning) for example the other day I couldnāt shake the image of me putting a knife through my own forehead, although itās not something I want to do. Or Iāll imagine someone killing me. I imagine my loved ones dying often. The thoughts feel so out of my control itās insane. I hate them. Another persistent issue that isnāt as new is replaying social scenarios. Iām a hairstylist so this one is difficult since I meet a bunch of new people every day. I obsess over how I act and if people like me. I will impulsively say things all the time and they will haunt me for weeks. I question even my closest friends and family who show their love. I find myself so angry and numb and like I have so much built up emotion and a busy mind always. While doing my job I spiral really badly if any little thing goes wrong and itās embarassing. I know thereās more but I canāt think of it now. I just want to feel better and like Iām not constantly battling my mind.
Hello! Iām new here. Unfortunately Iām not able to afford a therapist but Iāve been doing a lot of research and I think a lot of my symptoms/thoughts align with OCD. I want to share some of what I experience and see if anyone else experiences the same and what resources helped you. I think I mostly experience contamination OCD. Iām constantly worried that something I do/touch is going to make me really sick and/or die. Especially with food, Iām constantly worried that Iāll accidentally have something on my hands when I eat, then Iāll touch the food and get that on the food, eat it and get sick. So Iāll wash my hands every time my hands touch any little tiny thing again and again before I eat, same with any forks/spoons, or Iāll even think I touched cleaner a few hours ago and Iāve washed my hands several times since then and I just washed them again but they still feel dirty so even if impractical Iāll use a fork and if my hands touch the part of the fork that touches the food then I canāt eat the food any longer or use that fork. Also at work I have these thoughts that I know are ridiculous but also give me very real anxiety. Like āif I donāt finish this order before that machine beeps its a sign Iām going to dieā and then I have to rush to make sure I finish fast and then Iāll be like ok thatās so stressful Iām not going to think like that any more itās ridiculous but then the thoughts keep coming back so I have to keep rushing. This is just a little tad bit of what I experience and I would love to hear from others as I havenāt met anyone else like me before. Thank you!
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