Just venting. So last night I fainted at a concert. It was scary and I had a full blown somatic OCD-related panic attack right after. The shitty thing though was that I knew I wasn’t feeling great before I fainted, but I couldn’t tell if it was just my somatic OCD. I told myself it probably was and tried to be okay with the discomfort. Now I’m terrified that I have no idea what is real in my body anymore.
Expecting can cause illness to happen. The mind is very powerful
being “in your head” is a very powerful thing. I know it’s hard to differentiate between the physical affects and the mental affects but I’ve found, they both end the same. If something happened like this, then it happened. Going into whether you thought of it or it was going to happen is irrelevant if you choose to identify it in the sense of ridicule. BUT. If it’s from a term of question and you just want to continue your life and the choices this far feeling as tho the mental challenges don’t pose and apposition, ik that a regulated group of meds paired with conversation whether it be in a journal or a physical person has helped immensely. Ik that comes as repetitive advice but even if I don’t wish to “burden” my friends with my problem ik a piece of paper will always suffice
That’s kinda my question. All my thoughts feel so realistic and so now I doubt if they are ocd and if I just can’t make my mind up about something and I’m using ocd as an excuse or something idc I feel like this post is word vomit.
Currently I have several different OCD fears that pop up throughout the week depending on the situation. I've noticed a commonality between all of them are the fears relating to memory/false memory. Today is the ROCD struggle I've been dealing with. I know OCD has been trying this on me lately because of how much I love my spouse. They are my absolute best friend and she's my world. I value our marriage and friendship more than anything. OCD has latched onto one specific female coworker. And I don't even know why because even if I were single I wouldn't be into her. Even still, OCD makes me think I've cheated on my wife every time I'm alone with this coworker at work. Always starts as a what if, followed by imagery, followed by feelings that I must've actually done something and can't remember it. Usually fearing I've kissed her. It hurts because I know I'd never do that to my wife and I love her so much...the idea of losing her kills me, especially if it were the result of something I did. Just wanted to vent. Feel free to share your experiences or vents as well
Does anyone have any advice for how to know the difference between ocd and real feelings/thoughts? Sometimes an intrusive thought will come in and I immediately know it’s ridiculous and I can just leave it alone and it won’t bother me but other times I really really don’t know. It’s when ocd hijacks and twists my real feelings and thoughts and tries to manipulate me into believing they’re something they’re not or something that doesn’t align with my true morals or intentions. But since it’s twisting and mixing with real feelings I get so confused and scared. Everything gets jumbled and I feel like I can’t trust myself or my own mind. Yet other times and other topics I can laugh off and push away just fine. Make it make sense. And then I start to think well maybe I don’t have ocd at all and I’m just in denial because I don’t want to accept that these scary/concerning things are true about myself. Or maybe that’s just the ocd talking.
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